View Full Version : Re: RIP My old friend

November 24th 09, 12:31 AM
"Matthew" > wrote in message
> I just got back inside from burying my old friend of 15 plus years.
> His name was Phantom; my grouchy Old man. I buried him next to Spirit. I
> wrapped him in some towels and a nice box. I decorate the grave in red
> tone chipped bricks.
> Last night after I asked for the purrs. Phantom became much weaker.
> He tried to jump up on a table and fell. He just laid there in a odd
> facing fashion and did not move. When I picked him up to move him back to
> his perch after making sure he was ok. He was very weak barely able to
> stand. He has not been eating much, drinking water yes. His kidney were
> giving out from my final observations today. I laid awake most of the
> night thinking about this and checking on him. He had been a big cat
> going from about 16 pounds to 6 pounds since his hyperthyroidism set in.
> He had not been himself for a few days. I was hoping it was like before a
> few months ago. This morning I knew it was time to face one of my greatest
> fears.
> Me and Mom drove him to the emergency clinic that he was taken too not
> to long ago when we found out he had hyperthyroidism. I did the special
> whistle I had been doing for him over the last 15 years. Every time he
> heard before in the past. He would pop up from where ever and come to me
> for loving and kisses. He meowed a few times and had his special purr that
> he does, all the way to the end. I held his head in my hands and focused
> into his eyes. I told him I love him so much and thanked him for being my
> friend for so long. It was very quick before the vet was even done he
> was gone. I closed his eyes after the vet checked and told him travel
> safe my friend I Love you. I was crying like a baby when I said this. I
> still am as I write this.
> The vet and the staff were very pleasant and compassionate. The
> gentleman vet put his hand on my back and told me I was a very lucky man
> to have him in my life for so long. I know I was. I already feel so empty
> though. The vet also told me that I was a good man for giving the
> greatest gift I could give. Am I a good man ???. I don't feel like it. I
> will always have my doubts when the time was right. I think we all have
> felt this way. It is a demon I must face once again. I miss him so much
> already. I know I will see all of them again when it is my time. I pray
> the gods find forgiveness in their hearts to let me be with my proud
> masters of before. I pray for redemption for any trespasses I might do or
> have done in my life to be with the ones that I love.
> Travel safe across the bridge My friend. I love you so much

I am very sorry Matthew. Never doubt that you are a good man, a kind man,
and a brave man. It takes such courage to do the right thing, knowing how
much it will hurt us. Phantom went with love.