Lisa,

I am so sorry for your lost, I lost my two oldest, July 31st will be the one
year anniversary of Tyrone's death, and I lost Z this past March. Both were
15 when they passed. It never gets easier, so I can sympathize completely.

When you are ready, you will know. Please, though, when you decide you are
have an open mind, do not look for one "just like" Autumn. It is not fair to
the kitten, you, nor Autumn's memory. Since I have lost my oldest two I
have gained four more, none of them are like either of my old guys, and
trust me, I would love to have another one exactly like Tyrone (my baby) or
Z. They all have certain personality traits of my lost babies, but none of
them are exactly like them. Plus kittens' personalities tend to evolve - as
babies they can be attached to your hip, but when they hit teenage years,
they have better things to do (like typical teenagers). But I still love
them all.

And when you are ready, look at your local shelter. Kitten season is in
full-bloom now, and most shelters are over-flowing with cats and kittens.
And probably will be until the weather starts getting cold.

I am sorry for you loss. The pain is awful, but it does get better. I
still cry for Tyrone or Z on occassion, but they are in a better place than
being here and sick. I'll see them again on the Rainbow Bridge one day. In
the meantime I have many memories, even though they are no longer here.

Take care, Autumn will be watching over you now, your guardian angel.

JoJo