And thank you all for your kind thoughts and words

I've only just been able to start to grieve for my mother. I was here with
my mother died. The caregiver was here from the agency and the hospice
nurse. Then the funeral director. I made all the arrangements.

My brothers showed up and frankly, I thought they'd never leave. LOL They
finally left me alone today. I said just don't come over. I'm done, leave
me alone, I'm not going to talk about this anymore. I'll take care of
everything. Just like I always do.

They don't fly out until tomorrow but thankfully they let me have today to
myself. I really needed time to take a breath, you know?

So the woman from the National Cemetery called today to ask me what I wanted
on Mom's marker. Oh, I hadn't thought about that. When Dad died I got
papers with suggestions. Mom selected something. I didn't get anything
like that so I was at a loss. I said, um, Beloved Wife and Mother to Paul,
Scott and Jill 1-29-26 to 11-22-2008. She said that might be to long.

Oh, okay. Beloved Wife and Mother. She asked don't you want her years
listed in case someone 100 years from now is doing geneology research? Oh
for gawds sakes, woman! Everyone in her family is dead except us! I can't
think about this right now. It never lets up, does it?

Persia is right there next to me every evening, just head butting me and
tapping my nose with her soft little paw. Used to be just to get me to feed
her, now she's just offering comfort and headbutts. What a sweet girl
I'd be lost without her. My brothers never saw her.

Jill