"Noon Cat Nick" wrote in message
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Matthew wrote:
I just got back inside from burying my old friend of 15 plus years.
His name was Phantom; my grouchy Old man. I buried him next to Spirit.
I wrapped him in some towels and a nice box. I decorate the grave in red
tone chipped bricks.

Last night after I asked for the purrs. Phantom became much weaker.
He tried to jump up on a table and fell. He just laid there in a odd
facing fashion and did not move. When I picked him up to move him back
to his perch after making sure he was ok. He was very weak barely able
to stand. He has not been eating much, drinking water yes. His kidney
were giving out from my final observations today. I laid awake most of
the night thinking about this and checking on him. He had been a big cat
going from about 16 pounds to 6 pounds since his hyperthyroidism set in.
He had not been himself for a few days. I was hoping it was like before
a few months ago. This morning I knew it was time to face one of my
greatest fears.

Me and Mom drove him to the emergency clinic that he was taken too
not to long ago when we found out he had hyperthyroidism. I did the
special whistle I had been doing for him over the last 15 years. Every
time he heard before in the past. He would pop up from where ever and
come to me for loving and kisses. He meowed a few times and had his
special purr that he does, all the way to the end. I held his head in my
hands and focused into his eyes. I told him I love him so much and
thanked him for being my friend for so long. It was very quick before
the vet was even done he was gone. I closed his eyes after the vet
checked and told him travel safe my friend I Love you. I was crying like
a baby when I said this. I still am as I write this.

The vet and the staff were very pleasant and compassionate. The
gentleman vet put his hand on my back and told me I was a very lucky man
to have him in my life for so long. I know I was. I already feel so
empty though. The vet also told me that I was a good man for giving the
greatest gift I could give. Am I a good man ???. I don't feel like it.
I will always have my doubts when the time was right. I think we all have
felt this way. It is a demon I must face once again. I miss him so much
already. I know I will see all of them again when it is my time. I pray
the gods find forgiveness in their hearts to let me be with my proud
masters of before. I pray for redemption for any trespasses I might do
or have done in my life to be with the ones that I love.

Travel safe across the bridge My friend. I love you so much

"...do animals go to heaven?

I believe animals go to heaven if they were loved.
How could we do without them?