Vet Tech Journals: Unemployed again........

As of today, I join the unemployed.....again....

Yes, the cancer vet specialty group was an awesome place to work for.
Yes, it was awesome to learn about radiation and treatment of cancer.
Yes it was great to work with an awesome board certified veterinary
oncologist.

But the people I worked with, it became...well lets just say
questionable.

To prevent naming names, and details, and since more and more people
are finding things on the internet; I'll just say this...the decision
was mutual.

Their expectations were extremely high, and I readily admitted today
when called into the manager's office that I was not at the level that
was expected of me. I have made some mistakes, none of them were
fatal, but they could have been. I admitted that I was not used to
the rapid pace of multi-patient and multi-level anesthesia that they
wanted.

But I also made it clear that the constant criticism and attitude of
the people around me, was causing me a great deal of stress and caused
me to doubt my own abilities. I also made it clear that in general I
was not happy anymore. I did not feel I was part of the team, and the
unspoken tension was just growing, and I told them that if a team
cannot get along, then that team is not as efficient.

I care a great deal about my patients. And if I'm constantly being
nitpicked or have an extremely fast paced environment as a beginner, I
am bound to make more mistakes due to my lack of self-confidence. And
though I am upset at being discharged, since I was a part of something
so very crucial to a pet's care, I was able to say that as a distant
part of the team, since i felt i couldn't feel like i was part of the
team, i could not function as effectively and that affects the
patients care and the patients come first.

I managed to maintain my dignity and was upfront and honest about how
i was now unhappy, what frustrated me and how i was treated. I did
not go into specific details on how i also disagreed with the very
management that hired me as well.

I saw the writing on the wall, and was no longer happy. I was on edge
with the manager, the oncologist and with my co-workers. I reasoned
that if the tension and stress was going to be affecting me on a daily/
weekly basis, that it was not healthy for the patients and certainly
not worth it for me to damage my own health and psyche trying to fit
in.

So while I am ****ed off, because I saw this as an exciting
opportunity at specialty medicine, I am severely disappointed that
this didn't work out.

I held it in, and when I came home, vented to the BF and then started
crying. I picked up Mischief and squeezed her for comfort. She
squeaked in protest and after a minute demanded to be released.

I'm drowning my sorrows in fast food, chocolate and alcohol, and
trying very hard not to blame myself entirely. Yes I made mistakes, I
freely admit that. But aside from that, i felt i was treated rudely.
For example, never once in the two months i worked there was I ever
invited out to lunch when the rest of the team left for lunch hour.
One team member got board certified and they went out for a
celebratory luncheon , but no on even asked me. One team member took
the morning off and when she came in, she had brought lunch for the
other two team members, but there was nothing for me. All I wanted to
do was to get their approval, but every time i felt like i reached the
bar, the bar was either raised or moved. I confided in a team member
i trusted that i felt like no matter how hard I tried, I felt like it
never was enough. And if i was going to always feel like that, what
is the point in staying? Even if I had made it to the end of my
probation, I was already questioning whether it would had been worth
it to stay.

At least the decision was mutual, but it doesn't stop me from feeling
like i have failed yet again.

*sigh* Gonna go munch on some chocolate covered Bailey's and
eventually take a long bath.

ugh,

Kristi

"Mischief" wrote in message
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As of today, I join the unemployed.....again....

Yes, the cancer vet specialty group was an awesome place to work for.
Yes, it was awesome to learn about radiation and treatment of cancer.
Yes it was great to work with an awesome board certified veterinary
oncologist.

But the people I worked with, it became...well lets just say
questionable.

To prevent naming names, and details, and since more and more people
are finding things on the internet; I'll just say this...the decision
was mutual.

Their expectations were extremely high, and I readily admitted today
when called into the manager's office that I was not at the level that
was expected of me. I have made some mistakes, none of them were
fatal, but they could have been. I admitted that I was not used to
the rapid pace of multi-patient and multi-level anesthesia that they
wanted.

But I also made it clear that the constant criticism and attitude of
the people around me, was causing me a great deal of stress and caused
me to doubt my own abilities. I also made it clear that in general I
was not happy anymore. I did not feel I was part of the team, and the
unspoken tension was just growing, and I told them that if a team
cannot get along, then that team is not as efficient.

I care a great deal about my patients. And if I'm constantly being
nitpicked or have an extremely fast paced environment as a beginner, I
am bound to make more mistakes due to my lack of self-confidence. And
though I am upset at being discharged, since I was a part of something
so very crucial to a pet's care, I was able to say that as a distant
part of the team, since i felt i couldn't feel like i was part of the
team, i could not function as effectively and that affects the
patients care and the patients come first.

I managed to maintain my dignity and was upfront and honest about how
i was now unhappy, what frustrated me and how i was treated. I did
not go into specific details on how i also disagreed with the very
management that hired me as well.

I saw the writing on the wall, and was no longer happy. I was on edge
with the manager, the oncologist and with my co-workers. I reasoned
that if the tension and stress was going to be affecting me on a daily/
weekly basis, that it was not healthy for the patients and certainly
not worth it for me to damage my own health and psyche trying to fit
in.

So while I am ****ed off, because I saw this as an exciting
opportunity at specialty medicine, I am severely disappointed that
this didn't work out.

I held it in, and when I came home, vented to the BF and then started
crying. I picked up Mischief and squeezed her for comfort. She
squeaked in protest and after a minute demanded to be released.

I'm drowning my sorrows in fast food, chocolate and alcohol, and
trying very hard not to blame myself entirely. Yes I made mistakes, I
freely admit that. But aside from that, i felt i was treated rudely.
For example, never once in the two months i worked there was I ever
invited out to lunch when the rest of the team left for lunch hour.
One team member got board certified and they went out for a
celebratory luncheon , but no on even asked me. One team member took
the morning off and when she came in, she had brought lunch for the
other two team members, but there was nothing for me. All I wanted to
do was to get their approval, but every time i felt like i reached the
bar, the bar was either raised or moved. I confided in a team member
i trusted that i felt like no matter how hard I tried, I felt like it
never was enough. And if i was going to always feel like that, what
is the point in staying? Even if I had made it to the end of my
probation, I was already questioning whether it would had been worth
it to stay.

At least the decision was mutual, but it doesn't stop me from feeling
like i have failed yet again.

*sigh* Gonna go munch on some chocolate covered Bailey's and
eventually take a long bath.



I am so sorry, Kristi. I know the feeling of failure well-- it sucks bad.
Don't go too hogwild with the junk food, or you will end up feeling worse.
Purrs for you to feel better quickly.


--
Theresa and Dante

Stinky Forever: http://pets.webshots.com/album/125591586JWEFwh

At least the decision was mutual, but it doesn't stop me from feeling
like i have failed yet again.

*sigh* Gonna go munch on some chocolate covered Bailey's and
eventually take a long bath.

Please don't beat yourself up, Kristi. There are a whole lot more sucky
jobs out there than there are good jobs.

Nancy and I have both observed that really good managers are a lot rarer
than they used to be. It seems that coworkers who will honor and respect
their coworkers are also becoming very hard to find.

Even if the job was a little beyond your experience level when you were
first hired, the staff should have supported you and assisted you. With
respect and support the task of learning new skills becomes much easier.
Without them it becomes darned near impossible.

Hang in there.

Dan

"Kreisleriana" drtmuirATearthlink.net wrote in message
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"Mischief" wrote in message
...
As of today, I join the unemployed.....again....

Yes, the cancer vet specialty group was an awesome place to
work for.
Yes, it was awesome to learn about radiation and treatment of
cancer.
Yes it was great to work with an awesome board certified
veterinary
oncologist.

But the people I worked with, it became...well lets just say
questionable.

To prevent naming names, and details, and since more and more
people
are finding things on the internet; I'll just say this...the
decision
was mutual....

I am so sorry, Kristi. I know the feeling of failure well-- it
sucks bad...

Failure? What failure? Ain't no such thing. I'm a bit of a fan of
Tony Buzan's mind-map model, TEFCAS, and it looks like Kristi
followed it.

"Trial - Event - Feedback - Check- Adjust - Success"!.

You tried out for a job. It didn't work out. You know why it
didn't work out. You'll do things differently next time. And
there WILL be a next time. I don't see any "failure" in there.

--
MatSav

Mischief wrote:
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At least the decision was mutual, but it doesn't stop me from feeling
like i have failed yet again.

*sigh* Gonna go munch on some chocolate covered Bailey's and
eventually take a long bath.

ugh,

Kristi

{{{{{{{{{{{{ Kristi }}}}}}}}}}}}
--
Adrian (Owned by Snoopy, Bagheera & Shadow)
Cats leave pawprints on your heart
http://community.webshots.com/user/clowderuk

Sounds like a very unfriendly place to work You will find a place
to work that fits you. I know, because I can tell you really care
about the animals. I wonder if specialist vets are all this way.
When I had to take Tigger to the specialists it felt very cold and
unfriendly. Maybe it was because of the news I got but it was
basically - well she's got tumors on her liver, do you want to do a
biopsy? No giving me a chance to absorb the news, no discussion of
pros and cons or alternatives, no gee I'm sorry this is such bad
news.

On Jun 5, 5:50*pm, Mischief wrote:
As of today, I join the unemployed.....again....

Sorry to hear this

I care a great deal about my patients. *And if I'm constantly being
nitpicked or have an extremely fast paced environment as a beginner, I
am bound to make more mistakes due to my lack of self-confidence. *

Damn right! You;ve only been there a couple of months IIRC, everyone
needs some slack in their probation period because this is when they
get taught things and any problems get sorted out but it sounds to me
like they expected too much from the first day!



I'm drowning my sorrows in fast food, chocolate and alcohol, and
trying very hard not to blame myself entirely

Don't over do it...well maybe tonightbut don't keep going tomorrow

.. *Yes I made mistakes, I
freely admit that. *But aside from that, i felt i was treated rudely.
For example, never once in the two months i worked there was I ever
invited out to lunch when the rest of the team left for lunch hour.
One team member got board certified and they went out for a
celebratory luncheon , but no on even asked me. *One team member took
the morning off and when she came in, she had brought lunch for the
other two team members, but there was nothing for me.

That;s just plain terrible and in some places would amount to
harrassment! Where I work I'm in an office on my own and the rest of
the team are elsewhere but the people who share the same floor are
always friendly even through we don't really work together but last
week it was someone's birthday and the first I knew of it was when a
slice of birthday cake was delivered to me. If one of them is going to
the shops they'll always stick their head round the door and ask if I
need anything or invite me out for a drink. They really make an
effort and they are technically not even my co-workers. Sounds to me
like there's a clique going on there that doesn't want new people!


*sigh* *Gonna go munch on some chocolate covered Bailey's and
eventually take a long bath.


I'm sure you'll get something soon if the parting was mutual then at
least they should give you a good reference and as always take
something from the experience perhaps speciality work isn't up your
street? At least you've got some more experience under your belt- I
bet your skills at giving anaesthesia for example have improved with
all the practice you''ve been having.

Chocolate covered Bailey's? Does anyone know if that;s available in
the UK? It sounds lovely!

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Kristi}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Lesley

Slave of the Fabulous Furballs

"MatSav" matthew | dot | savage | at | dsl | dot | pipex | dot | com
wrote in message ...
"Kreisleriana" drtmuirATearthlink.net wrote in message
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"Mischief" wrote in message
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As of today, I join the unemployed.....again....

Yes, the cancer vet specialty group was an awesome place to work
for.
Yes, it was awesome to learn about radiation and treatment of
cancer.
Yes it was great to work with an awesome board certified
veterinary
oncologist.

But the people I worked with, it became...well lets just say
questionable.

To prevent naming names, and details, and since more and more
people
are finding things on the internet; I'll just say this...the
decision
was mutual....

I am so sorry, Kristi. I know the feeling of failure well-- it
sucks bad...

Failure? What failure? Ain't no such thing. I'm a bit of a fan of
Tony Buzan's mind-map model, TEFCAS, and it looks like Kristi
followed it.

"Trial - Event - Feedback - Check- Adjust - Success"!.

You tried out for a job. It didn't work out. You know why it didn't
work out. You'll do things differently next time. And there WILL be
a next time. I don't see any "failure" in there.


Failure is just a word. It is usable, even in our insanely PC world.

Tried. Failed. Tried again. Not an evil thing.

Babies learning to walk fail and try again. Adults that hope for more
than a mundane life can, should, and will fail and fail again in the
process.

When we reach the point we have to call everything success, we quickly
lose the ability to communicate with words.

Jo

"Jofirey" wrote in message
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"MatSav" matthew | dot | savage | at | dsl | dot | pipex | dot
| com wrote in message
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"Kreisleriana" drtmuirATearthlink.net wrote in message
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"Mischief" wrote in message
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As of today, I join the unemployed.....again....

Yes, the cancer vet specialty group was an awesome place to
work for.
Yes, it was awesome to learn about radiation and treatment
of cancer.
Yes it was great to work with an awesome board certified
veterinary
oncologist.

But the people I worked with, it became...well lets just say
questionable.

To prevent naming names, and details, and since more and
more people
are finding things on the internet; I'll just say this...the
decision
was mutual....

I am so sorry, Kristi. I know the feeling of failure well--
it sucks bad...

Failure? What failure? Ain't no such thing. I'm a bit of a fan
of Tony Buzan's mind-map model, TEFCAS, and it looks like
Kristi followed it.

"Trial - Event - Feedback - Check- Adjust - Success"!.

You tried out for a job. It didn't work out. You know why it
didn't work out. You'll do things differently next time. And
there WILL be a next time. I don't see any "failure" in there.


Failure is just a word. It is usable, even in our insanely PC
world.

Tried. Failed. Tried again. Not an evil thing.

Babies learning to walk fail and try again. Adults that hope
for more than a mundane life can, should, and will fail and
fail again in the process.

When we reach the point we have to call everything success, we
quickly lose the ability to communicate with words.

"Failure" is such a negative word. It won't help anyone to
achieve the eventual desired outcome if they believe they failed.

Tony Buzan's TEFCAS model suggests that every action has an event
associated with it. The event may not have been the desired
outcome, but there was an event. As such, it isn't a failure -
just different to what was expected.

The next step is the feedback, depending on whether the event was
successful in meeting the aim. If it was, then the feedback is
"great! I'll do the same next time!". If the event didn't have
the desired outcome, then it should generate self-questioning
such as "what can I do differently next time that will get me
nearer to my desired outcome?"

The answer to that feedback is the "check" part of the model,
which is followed by "adjust" - i.e. do something different next
time, or repeat the same action (depending on the previous
outcome). This will, if repeated enough times, lead to reaching
the desired outcome - in other words, success.

Note that the model doesn't call everything 'success', but
neither does it refer to a failure.

Modern athletes at the top of their career use this model, by
another name - Neuro-Linguistic Programming (NLP). An earlier
incarnation was known as "PMA" - "Positive Mental Attitude". As
an example, I'm fortunate to have been unemployed for only two
weeks in my entire working life. I was never laid off, but people
I know and worked with were. Some said, "I've been made
redundant". Others said "My job has been made redundant". Guess
which ones were re-hired? I've always kept that in mind.

It all amounts to the same thing - if you think good thoughts,
you'll get good results - and it seems like Kristi's following
the right road.

--
MatSav

On Jun 5, 5:50*pm, Mischief wrote:
As of today, I join the unemployed.....again....

At least the decision was mutual, but it doesn't stop me from feeling
like i have failed yet again.

*sigh* *Gonna go munch on some chocolate covered Bailey's and
eventually take a long bath.

ugh,

Kristi

I'm sorry. Really, they sound horrid. I can't imagine bringing lunch
in for everyone but one person, how cruel. They sound like a bunch of
assholes that it's best to be far away from. I do understand about the
economy and all, though, so I hope you find a great job very soon.

Candace