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Vet Tech Journals: Unemployed again........
As of today, I join the unemployed.....again....
Yes, the cancer vet specialty group was an awesome place to work for. Yes, it was awesome to learn about radiation and treatment of cancer. Yes it was great to work with an awesome board certified veterinary oncologist. But the people I worked with, it became...well lets just say questionable. To prevent naming names, and details, and since more and more people are finding things on the internet; I'll just say this...the decision was mutual. Their expectations were extremely high, and I readily admitted today when called into the manager's office that I was not at the level that was expected of me. I have made some mistakes, none of them were fatal, but they could have been. I admitted that I was not used to the rapid pace of multi-patient and multi-level anesthesia that they wanted. But I also made it clear that the constant criticism and attitude of the people around me, was causing me a great deal of stress and caused me to doubt my own abilities. I also made it clear that in general I was not happy anymore. I did not feel I was part of the team, and the unspoken tension was just growing, and I told them that if a team cannot get along, then that team is not as efficient. I care a great deal about my patients. And if I'm constantly being nitpicked or have an extremely fast paced environment as a beginner, I am bound to make more mistakes due to my lack of self-confidence. And though I am upset at being discharged, since I was a part of something so very crucial to a pet's care, I was able to say that as a distant part of the team, since i felt i couldn't feel like i was part of the team, i could not function as effectively and that affects the patients care and the patients come first. I managed to maintain my dignity and was upfront and honest about how i was now unhappy, what frustrated me and how i was treated. I did not go into specific details on how i also disagreed with the very management that hired me as well. I saw the writing on the wall, and was no longer happy. I was on edge with the manager, the oncologist and with my co-workers. I reasoned that if the tension and stress was going to be affecting me on a daily/ weekly basis, that it was not healthy for the patients and certainly not worth it for me to damage my own health and psyche trying to fit in. So while I am ****ed off, because I saw this as an exciting opportunity at specialty medicine, I am severely disappointed that this didn't work out. I held it in, and when I came home, vented to the BF and then started crying. I picked up Mischief and squeezed her for comfort. She squeaked in protest and after a minute demanded to be released. I'm drowning my sorrows in fast food, chocolate and alcohol, and trying very hard not to blame myself entirely. Yes I made mistakes, I freely admit that. But aside from that, i felt i was treated rudely. For example, never once in the two months i worked there was I ever invited out to lunch when the rest of the team left for lunch hour. One team member got board certified and they went out for a celebratory luncheon , but no on even asked me. One team member took the morning off and when she came in, she had brought lunch for the other two team members, but there was nothing for me. All I wanted to do was to get their approval, but every time i felt like i reached the bar, the bar was either raised or moved. I confided in a team member i trusted that i felt like no matter how hard I tried, I felt like it never was enough. And if i was going to always feel like that, what is the point in staying? Even if I had made it to the end of my probation, I was already questioning whether it would had been worth it to stay. At least the decision was mutual, but it doesn't stop me from feeling like i have failed yet again. *sigh* Gonna go munch on some chocolate covered Bailey's and eventually take a long bath. ugh, Kristi |
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Vet Tech Journals: Unemployed again........
"Mischief" wrote in message ... As of today, I join the unemployed.....again.... Yes, the cancer vet specialty group was an awesome place to work for. Yes, it was awesome to learn about radiation and treatment of cancer. Yes it was great to work with an awesome board certified veterinary oncologist. But the people I worked with, it became...well lets just say questionable. To prevent naming names, and details, and since more and more people are finding things on the internet; I'll just say this...the decision was mutual. Their expectations were extremely high, and I readily admitted today when called into the manager's office that I was not at the level that was expected of me. I have made some mistakes, none of them were fatal, but they could have been. I admitted that I was not used to the rapid pace of multi-patient and multi-level anesthesia that they wanted. But I also made it clear that the constant criticism and attitude of the people around me, was causing me a great deal of stress and caused me to doubt my own abilities. I also made it clear that in general I was not happy anymore. I did not feel I was part of the team, and the unspoken tension was just growing, and I told them that if a team cannot get along, then that team is not as efficient. I care a great deal about my patients. And if I'm constantly being nitpicked or have an extremely fast paced environment as a beginner, I am bound to make more mistakes due to my lack of self-confidence. And though I am upset at being discharged, since I was a part of something so very crucial to a pet's care, I was able to say that as a distant part of the team, since i felt i couldn't feel like i was part of the team, i could not function as effectively and that affects the patients care and the patients come first. I managed to maintain my dignity and was upfront and honest about how i was now unhappy, what frustrated me and how i was treated. I did not go into specific details on how i also disagreed with the very management that hired me as well. I saw the writing on the wall, and was no longer happy. I was on edge with the manager, the oncologist and with my co-workers. I reasoned that if the tension and stress was going to be affecting me on a daily/ weekly basis, that it was not healthy for the patients and certainly not worth it for me to damage my own health and psyche trying to fit in. So while I am ****ed off, because I saw this as an exciting opportunity at specialty medicine, I am severely disappointed that this didn't work out. I held it in, and when I came home, vented to the BF and then started crying. I picked up Mischief and squeezed her for comfort. She squeaked in protest and after a minute demanded to be released. I'm drowning my sorrows in fast food, chocolate and alcohol, and trying very hard not to blame myself entirely. Yes I made mistakes, I freely admit that. But aside from that, i felt i was treated rudely. For example, never once in the two months i worked there was I ever invited out to lunch when the rest of the team left for lunch hour. One team member got board certified and they went out for a celebratory luncheon , but no on even asked me. One team member took the morning off and when she came in, she had brought lunch for the other two team members, but there was nothing for me. All I wanted to do was to get their approval, but every time i felt like i reached the bar, the bar was either raised or moved. I confided in a team member i trusted that i felt like no matter how hard I tried, I felt like it never was enough. And if i was going to always feel like that, what is the point in staying? Even if I had made it to the end of my probation, I was already questioning whether it would had been worth it to stay. At least the decision was mutual, but it doesn't stop me from feeling like i have failed yet again. *sigh* Gonna go munch on some chocolate covered Bailey's and eventually take a long bath. I am so sorry, Kristi. I know the feeling of failure well-- it sucks bad. Don't go too hogwild with the junk food, or you will end up feeling worse. Purrs for you to feel better quickly. -- Theresa and Dante Stinky Forever: http://pets.webshots.com/album/125591586JWEFwh |
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Vet Tech Journals: Unemployed again........
At least the decision was mutual, but it doesn't stop me from feeling
like i have failed yet again. *sigh* Gonna go munch on some chocolate covered Bailey's and eventually take a long bath. Please don't beat yourself up, Kristi. There are a whole lot more sucky jobs out there than there are good jobs. Nancy and I have both observed that really good managers are a lot rarer than they used to be. It seems that coworkers who will honor and respect their coworkers are also becoming very hard to find. Even if the job was a little beyond your experience level when you were first hired, the staff should have supported you and assisted you. With respect and support the task of learning new skills becomes much easier. Without them it becomes darned near impossible. Hang in there. Dan |
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Vet Tech Journals: Unemployed again........
"Kreisleriana" drtmuirATearthlink.net wrote in message
... "Mischief" wrote in message ... As of today, I join the unemployed.....again.... Yes, the cancer vet specialty group was an awesome place to work for. Yes, it was awesome to learn about radiation and treatment of cancer. Yes it was great to work with an awesome board certified veterinary oncologist. But the people I worked with, it became...well lets just say questionable. To prevent naming names, and details, and since more and more people are finding things on the internet; I'll just say this...the decision was mutual.... I am so sorry, Kristi. I know the feeling of failure well-- it sucks bad... Failure? What failure? Ain't no such thing. I'm a bit of a fan of Tony Buzan's mind-map model, TEFCAS, and it looks like Kristi followed it. "Trial - Event - Feedback - Check- Adjust - Success"!. You tried out for a job. It didn't work out. You know why it didn't work out. You'll do things differently next time. And there WILL be a next time. I don't see any "failure" in there. -- MatSav |
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Mischief wrote:
snip At least the decision was mutual, but it doesn't stop me from feeling like i have failed yet again. *sigh* Gonna go munch on some chocolate covered Bailey's and eventually take a long bath. ugh, Kristi {{{{{{{{{{{{ Kristi }}}}}}}}}}}} -- Adrian (Owned by Snoopy, Bagheera & Shadow) Cats leave pawprints on your heart http://community.webshots.com/user/clowderuk |
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Vet Tech Journals: Unemployed again........
Sounds like a very unfriendly place to work You will find a place
to work that fits you. I know, because I can tell you really care about the animals. I wonder if specialist vets are all this way. When I had to take Tigger to the specialists it felt very cold and unfriendly. Maybe it was because of the news I got but it was basically - well she's got tumors on her liver, do you want to do a biopsy? No giving me a chance to absorb the news, no discussion of pros and cons or alternatives, no gee I'm sorry this is such bad news. |
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Vet Tech Journals: Unemployed again........
On Jun 5, 5:50*pm, Mischief wrote:
As of today, I join the unemployed.....again.... Sorry to hear this I care a great deal about my patients. *And if I'm constantly being nitpicked or have an extremely fast paced environment as a beginner, I am bound to make more mistakes due to my lack of self-confidence. * Damn right! You;ve only been there a couple of months IIRC, everyone needs some slack in their probation period because this is when they get taught things and any problems get sorted out but it sounds to me like they expected too much from the first day! I'm drowning my sorrows in fast food, chocolate and alcohol, and trying very hard not to blame myself entirely Don't over do it...well maybe tonightbut don't keep going tomorrow .. *Yes I made mistakes, I freely admit that. *But aside from that, i felt i was treated rudely. For example, never once in the two months i worked there was I ever invited out to lunch when the rest of the team left for lunch hour. One team member got board certified and they went out for a celebratory luncheon , but no on even asked me. *One team member took the morning off and when she came in, she had brought lunch for the other two team members, but there was nothing for me. That;s just plain terrible and in some places would amount to harrassment! Where I work I'm in an office on my own and the rest of the team are elsewhere but the people who share the same floor are always friendly even through we don't really work together but last week it was someone's birthday and the first I knew of it was when a slice of birthday cake was delivered to me. If one of them is going to the shops they'll always stick their head round the door and ask if I need anything or invite me out for a drink. They really make an effort and they are technically not even my co-workers. Sounds to me like there's a clique going on there that doesn't want new people! *sigh* *Gonna go munch on some chocolate covered Bailey's and eventually take a long bath. I'm sure you'll get something soon if the parting was mutual then at least they should give you a good reference and as always take something from the experience perhaps speciality work isn't up your street? At least you've got some more experience under your belt- I bet your skills at giving anaesthesia for example have improved with all the practice you''ve been having. Chocolate covered Bailey's? Does anyone know if that;s available in the UK? It sounds lovely! {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Kristi}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Lesley Slave of the Fabulous Furballs |
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"MatSav" matthew | dot | savage | at | dsl | dot | pipex | dot | com wrote in message ... "Kreisleriana" drtmuirATearthlink.net wrote in message ... "Mischief" wrote in message ... As of today, I join the unemployed.....again.... Yes, the cancer vet specialty group was an awesome place to work for. Yes, it was awesome to learn about radiation and treatment of cancer. Yes it was great to work with an awesome board certified veterinary oncologist. But the people I worked with, it became...well lets just say questionable. To prevent naming names, and details, and since more and more people are finding things on the internet; I'll just say this...the decision was mutual.... I am so sorry, Kristi. I know the feeling of failure well-- it sucks bad... Failure? What failure? Ain't no such thing. I'm a bit of a fan of Tony Buzan's mind-map model, TEFCAS, and it looks like Kristi followed it. "Trial - Event - Feedback - Check- Adjust - Success"!. You tried out for a job. It didn't work out. You know why it didn't work out. You'll do things differently next time. And there WILL be a next time. I don't see any "failure" in there. Failure is just a word. It is usable, even in our insanely PC world. Tried. Failed. Tried again. Not an evil thing. Babies learning to walk fail and try again. Adults that hope for more than a mundane life can, should, and will fail and fail again in the process. When we reach the point we have to call everything success, we quickly lose the ability to communicate with words. Jo |
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"Jofirey" wrote in message
... "MatSav" matthew | dot | savage | at | dsl | dot | pipex | dot | com wrote in message ... "Kreisleriana" drtmuirATearthlink.net wrote in message ... "Mischief" wrote in message ... As of today, I join the unemployed.....again.... Yes, the cancer vet specialty group was an awesome place to work for. Yes, it was awesome to learn about radiation and treatment of cancer. Yes it was great to work with an awesome board certified veterinary oncologist. But the people I worked with, it became...well lets just say questionable. To prevent naming names, and details, and since more and more people are finding things on the internet; I'll just say this...the decision was mutual.... I am so sorry, Kristi. I know the feeling of failure well-- it sucks bad... Failure? What failure? Ain't no such thing. I'm a bit of a fan of Tony Buzan's mind-map model, TEFCAS, and it looks like Kristi followed it. "Trial - Event - Feedback - Check- Adjust - Success"!. You tried out for a job. It didn't work out. You know why it didn't work out. You'll do things differently next time. And there WILL be a next time. I don't see any "failure" in there. Failure is just a word. It is usable, even in our insanely PC world. Tried. Failed. Tried again. Not an evil thing. Babies learning to walk fail and try again. Adults that hope for more than a mundane life can, should, and will fail and fail again in the process. When we reach the point we have to call everything success, we quickly lose the ability to communicate with words. "Failure" is such a negative word. It won't help anyone to achieve the eventual desired outcome if they believe they failed. Tony Buzan's TEFCAS model suggests that every action has an event associated with it. The event may not have been the desired outcome, but there was an event. As such, it isn't a failure - just different to what was expected. The next step is the feedback, depending on whether the event was successful in meeting the aim. If it was, then the feedback is "great! I'll do the same next time!". If the event didn't have the desired outcome, then it should generate self-questioning such as "what can I do differently next time that will get me nearer to my desired outcome?" The answer to that feedback is the "check" part of the model, which is followed by "adjust" - i.e. do something different next time, or repeat the same action (depending on the previous outcome). This will, if repeated enough times, lead to reaching the desired outcome - in other words, success. Note that the model doesn't call everything 'success', but neither does it refer to a failure. Modern athletes at the top of their career use this model, by another name - Neuro-Linguistic Programming (NLP). An earlier incarnation was known as "PMA" - "Positive Mental Attitude". As an example, I'm fortunate to have been unemployed for only two weeks in my entire working life. I was never laid off, but people I know and worked with were. Some said, "I've been made redundant". Others said "My job has been made redundant". Guess which ones were re-hired? I've always kept that in mind. It all amounts to the same thing - if you think good thoughts, you'll get good results - and it seems like Kristi's following the right road. -- MatSav |
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On Jun 5, 5:50*pm, Mischief wrote:
As of today, I join the unemployed.....again.... At least the decision was mutual, but it doesn't stop me from feeling like i have failed yet again. *sigh* *Gonna go munch on some chocolate covered Bailey's and eventually take a long bath. ugh, Kristi I'm sorry. Really, they sound horrid. I can't imagine bringing lunch in for everyone but one person, how cruel. They sound like a bunch of assholes that it's best to be far away from. I do understand about the economy and all, though, so I hope you find a great job very soon. Candace |
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