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Thank you everyone...my sweet baby girl passed away
Thank you all so much for your responses to my postings. I have not posted
here in several weeks, all my free time has been devoted to my little Delilah...lying/cuddling with her, petting, brushing, medicating and occasionally bathing when necessary and lots of cleanup. Aside from my job and about 5 hours of sleep each night, my other focus has been on my little girl. I have bags under my eyes so big that they could carry groceries. Delilah peacefully slipped away at about 4:35 yesterday afternoon. The last 48 hours of her life, I had noticed some changes that were not good. She had a couple 'episodes' that were probably mild seizures. They were not as extreme like the grand mal seizures she had in August but on a smaller scale yet still very disturbing to have to see. Yesterday at 12:30 she had an episode and for a brief moment, she looked up at me straight in the eye and our eyes locked. It was very strange and incredible, considering she'd been blind for the last few months of her life. She was coming out of one of these "spells", looked straight at me and was climing over something, fumbling and trying very hard to get close to me on the other side of the room. I knew that the prednisone I'd been giving her for the brain tumor was no longer enough to keep the brain swelling and seizure activity at bay. Something inside of me just snapped and I knew this was it, I could not let her go on like this (people told me you will know when the time is right and I never thought it would happen with my many false alarms but it finally happened.... in that instant I was so sure that the time had come and I couldn't wait a minute longer. It wasn't just the seizures but the constant circling/pacing she did and it was killing me to watch this). I called the animal hospital. My vet called me back at 3:00. I asked would she please come over and put Delilah to sleep and she said yes. I called my friends (I was having a dinner party) to ask them to come a bit later . The vet came after 4:00. I held Delilah while the vet injected her leg muscle with a sedative. In 5 minutes she was sedated and then the vet administered a lethal injection into her veins. Within seconds Delilah very peacefully slipped away. I had to be strong because in 20 minutes I had friends coming over for dinner to celebrate my bday. I managed to have a good time considering the circumstances but today I am so sad and greiving very deeply for such a special animal. My heart is in a million pieces right now. I miss my baby girl so much and I only hope I did the right thing for her. I tried so hard to "time it just right" . When I knew of her blindless/tumor in August, I wasn't ready to let her go. Though she was unable to do most of what she used to, we still had some quality time since then...lots of cuddling/purring/kneading and following the sun beams to nap in and as long as she was doing that, I felt it was okay to keep her alive. I just want to die right now because I am so broken-hearted. Is this because she was my first pet? Does this get easier with other pets? I still have another cat who thank god is healthy but unless this gets easier I don't think I can keep going through this over and over. |
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"DaniellaY" wrote in message ... Delilah peacefully slipped away at about 4:35 yesterday afternoon. Daniella-- You took great care to show your love for Delilah and to guage when the time was right to give her the gift of mercy. It cannot get any better than that for a pet at the end of their lives. I know it is terrible to be without her--the pain will dull over time, but never go completely away. You will never forget her and the love you created between you will live on always. In time, when you are ready, maybe you will want to tap into that great store of love and give some of it to another needy kitty. For now be good to yourself, and know that you did the right thing. |
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"DaniellaY" wrote in message ... Delilah peacefully slipped away at about 4:35 yesterday afternoon. Daniella-- You took great care to show your love for Delilah and to guage when the time was right to give her the gift of mercy. It cannot get any better than that for a pet at the end of their lives. I know it is terrible to be without her--the pain will dull over time, but never go completely away. You will never forget her and the love you created between you will live on always. In time, when you are ready, maybe you will want to tap into that great store of love and give some of it to another needy kitty. For now be good to yourself, and know that you did the right thing. |
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"DaniellaY" wrote in message ... Thank you all so much for your responses to my postings. I have not posted here in several weeks, all my free time has been devoted to my little Delilah...lying/cuddling with her, petting, brushing, medicating and occasionally bathing when necessary and lots of cleanup. Aside from my job and about 5 hours of sleep each night, my other focus has been on my little girl. I have bags under my eyes so big that they could carry groceries. Delilah peacefully slipped away at about 4:35 yesterday afternoon. The last 48 hours of her life, I had noticed some changes that were not good. She had a couple 'episodes' that were probably mild seizures. They were not as extreme like the grand mal seizures she had in August but on a smaller scale yet still very disturbing to have to see. Yesterday at 12:30 she had an episode and for a brief moment, she looked up at me straight in the eye and our eyes locked. It was very strange and incredible, considering she'd been blind for the last few months of her life. She was coming out of one of these "spells", looked straight at me and was climing over something, fumbling and trying very hard to get close to me on the other side of the room. I knew that the prednisone I'd been giving her for the brain tumor was no longer enough to keep the brain swelling and seizure activity at bay. Something inside of me just snapped and I knew this was it, I could not let her go on like this (people told me you will know when the time is right and I never thought it would happen with my many false alarms but it finally happened.... in that instant I was so sure that the time had come and I couldn't wait a minute longer. It wasn't just the seizures but the constant circling/pacing she did and it was killing me to watch this). I called the animal hospital. My vet called me back at 3:00. I asked would she please come over and put Delilah to sleep and she said yes. I called my friends (I was having a dinner party) to ask them to come a bit later . The vet came after 4:00. I held Delilah while the vet injected her leg muscle with a sedative. In 5 minutes she was sedated and then the vet administered a lethal injection into her veins. Within seconds Delilah very peacefully slipped away. I had to be strong because in 20 minutes I had friends coming over for dinner to celebrate my bday. I managed to have a good time considering the circumstances but today I am so sad and greiving very deeply for such a special animal. My heart is in a million pieces right now. I miss my baby girl so much and I only hope I did the right thing for her. I tried so hard to "time it just right" . When I knew of her blindless/tumor in August, I wasn't ready to let her go. Though she was unable to do most of what she used to, we still had some quality time since then...lots of cuddling/purring/kneading and following the sun beams to nap in and as long as she was doing that, I felt it was okay to keep her alive. I just want to die right now because I am so broken-hearted. Is this because she was my first pet? Does this get easier with other pets? I still have another cat who thank god is healthy but unless this gets easier I don't think I can keep going through this over and over. So sorry for your loss. I think the first time you lose someone close to you is the hardest. After that at least you have the knowledge that the pain doesn't last forever. It's easier to bear because you know there will come a day when you can remember your loved one with pleasure at having known them instead of just the pain of loss. W |
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"DaniellaY" wrote in message ... Thank you all so much for your responses to my postings. I have not posted here in several weeks, all my free time has been devoted to my little Delilah...lying/cuddling with her, petting, brushing, medicating and occasionally bathing when necessary and lots of cleanup. Aside from my job and about 5 hours of sleep each night, my other focus has been on my little girl. I have bags under my eyes so big that they could carry groceries. Delilah peacefully slipped away at about 4:35 yesterday afternoon. The last 48 hours of her life, I had noticed some changes that were not good. She had a couple 'episodes' that were probably mild seizures. They were not as extreme like the grand mal seizures she had in August but on a smaller scale yet still very disturbing to have to see. Yesterday at 12:30 she had an episode and for a brief moment, she looked up at me straight in the eye and our eyes locked. It was very strange and incredible, considering she'd been blind for the last few months of her life. She was coming out of one of these "spells", looked straight at me and was climing over something, fumbling and trying very hard to get close to me on the other side of the room. I knew that the prednisone I'd been giving her for the brain tumor was no longer enough to keep the brain swelling and seizure activity at bay. Something inside of me just snapped and I knew this was it, I could not let her go on like this (people told me you will know when the time is right and I never thought it would happen with my many false alarms but it finally happened.... in that instant I was so sure that the time had come and I couldn't wait a minute longer. It wasn't just the seizures but the constant circling/pacing she did and it was killing me to watch this). I called the animal hospital. My vet called me back at 3:00. I asked would she please come over and put Delilah to sleep and she said yes. I called my friends (I was having a dinner party) to ask them to come a bit later . The vet came after 4:00. I held Delilah while the vet injected her leg muscle with a sedative. In 5 minutes she was sedated and then the vet administered a lethal injection into her veins. Within seconds Delilah very peacefully slipped away. I had to be strong because in 20 minutes I had friends coming over for dinner to celebrate my bday. I managed to have a good time considering the circumstances but today I am so sad and greiving very deeply for such a special animal. My heart is in a million pieces right now. I miss my baby girl so much and I only hope I did the right thing for her. I tried so hard to "time it just right" . When I knew of her blindless/tumor in August, I wasn't ready to let her go. Though she was unable to do most of what she used to, we still had some quality time since then...lots of cuddling/purring/kneading and following the sun beams to nap in and as long as she was doing that, I felt it was okay to keep her alive. I just want to die right now because I am so broken-hearted. Is this because she was my first pet? Does this get easier with other pets? I still have another cat who thank god is healthy but unless this gets easier I don't think I can keep going through this over and over. So sorry for your loss. I think the first time you lose someone close to you is the hardest. After that at least you have the knowledge that the pain doesn't last forever. It's easier to bear because you know there will come a day when you can remember your loved one with pleasure at having known them instead of just the pain of loss. W |
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I am sooo sorry for your loss.
Linda E "DaniellaY" wrote in message ... Thank you all so much for your responses to my postings. I have not posted here in several weeks, all my free time has been devoted to my little Delilah...lying/cuddling with her, petting, brushing, medicating and occasionally bathing when necessary and lots of cleanup. Aside from my job and about 5 hours of sleep each night, my other focus has been on my little girl. I have bags under my eyes so big that they could carry groceries. Delilah peacefully slipped away at about 4:35 yesterday afternoon. The last 48 hours of her life, I had noticed some changes that were not good. She had a couple 'episodes' that were probably mild seizures. They were not as extreme like the grand mal seizures she had in August but on a smaller scale yet still very disturbing to have to see. Yesterday at 12:30 she had an episode and for a brief moment, she looked up at me straight in the eye and our eyes locked. It was very strange and incredible, considering she'd been blind for the last few months of her life. She was coming out of one of these "spells", looked straight at me and was climing over something, fumbling and trying very hard to get close to me on the other side of the room. I knew that the prednisone I'd been giving her for the brain tumor was no longer enough to keep the brain swelling and seizure activity at bay. Something inside of me just snapped and I knew this was it, I could not let her go on like this (people told me you will know when the time is right and I never thought it would happen with my many false alarms but it finally happened.... in that instant I was so sure that the time had come and I couldn't wait a minute longer. It wasn't just the seizures but the constant circling/pacing she did and it was killing me to watch this). I called the animal hospital. My vet called me back at 3:00. I asked would she please come over and put Delilah to sleep and she said yes. I called my friends (I was having a dinner party) to ask them to come a bit later . The vet came after 4:00. I held Delilah while the vet injected her leg muscle with a sedative. In 5 minutes she was sedated and then the vet administered a lethal injection into her veins. Within seconds Delilah very peacefully slipped away. I had to be strong because in 20 minutes I had friends coming over for dinner to celebrate my bday. I managed to have a good time considering the circumstances but today I am so sad and greiving very deeply for such a special animal. My heart is in a million pieces right now. I miss my baby girl so much and I only hope I did the right thing for her. I tried so hard to "time it just right" . When I knew of her blindless/tumor in August, I wasn't ready to let her go. Though she was unable to do most of what she used to, we still had some quality time since then...lots of cuddling/purring/kneading and following the sun beams to nap in and as long as she was doing that, I felt it was okay to keep her alive. I just want to die right now because I am so broken-hearted. Is this because she was my first pet? Does this get easier with other pets? I still have another cat who thank god is healthy but unless this gets easier I don't think I can keep going through this over and over. |
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I am sooo sorry for your loss.
Linda E "DaniellaY" wrote in message ... Thank you all so much for your responses to my postings. I have not posted here in several weeks, all my free time has been devoted to my little Delilah...lying/cuddling with her, petting, brushing, medicating and occasionally bathing when necessary and lots of cleanup. Aside from my job and about 5 hours of sleep each night, my other focus has been on my little girl. I have bags under my eyes so big that they could carry groceries. Delilah peacefully slipped away at about 4:35 yesterday afternoon. The last 48 hours of her life, I had noticed some changes that were not good. She had a couple 'episodes' that were probably mild seizures. They were not as extreme like the grand mal seizures she had in August but on a smaller scale yet still very disturbing to have to see. Yesterday at 12:30 she had an episode and for a brief moment, she looked up at me straight in the eye and our eyes locked. It was very strange and incredible, considering she'd been blind for the last few months of her life. She was coming out of one of these "spells", looked straight at me and was climing over something, fumbling and trying very hard to get close to me on the other side of the room. I knew that the prednisone I'd been giving her for the brain tumor was no longer enough to keep the brain swelling and seizure activity at bay. Something inside of me just snapped and I knew this was it, I could not let her go on like this (people told me you will know when the time is right and I never thought it would happen with my many false alarms but it finally happened.... in that instant I was so sure that the time had come and I couldn't wait a minute longer. It wasn't just the seizures but the constant circling/pacing she did and it was killing me to watch this). I called the animal hospital. My vet called me back at 3:00. I asked would she please come over and put Delilah to sleep and she said yes. I called my friends (I was having a dinner party) to ask them to come a bit later . The vet came after 4:00. I held Delilah while the vet injected her leg muscle with a sedative. In 5 minutes she was sedated and then the vet administered a lethal injection into her veins. Within seconds Delilah very peacefully slipped away. I had to be strong because in 20 minutes I had friends coming over for dinner to celebrate my bday. I managed to have a good time considering the circumstances but today I am so sad and greiving very deeply for such a special animal. My heart is in a million pieces right now. I miss my baby girl so much and I only hope I did the right thing for her. I tried so hard to "time it just right" . When I knew of her blindless/tumor in August, I wasn't ready to let her go. Though she was unable to do most of what she used to, we still had some quality time since then...lots of cuddling/purring/kneading and following the sun beams to nap in and as long as she was doing that, I felt it was okay to keep her alive. I just want to die right now because I am so broken-hearted. Is this because she was my first pet? Does this get easier with other pets? I still have another cat who thank god is healthy but unless this gets easier I don't think I can keep going through this over and over. |
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Daniella,
Lots of hugs! It hurts so much to lose one of our little guys. It doesn't get easier, but I think (at least for me) that after awhile you start to understand. These little furries are only put on this earth for a short time. The best we can do is love them for the time they are here, but know that at some point they will have to leave. I think each animal opens up your heart a little more. When we've taken in another stray after one has departed, I always believed that the last one approved. They know how much it means to have someone to love them. I'm going to post below a poem a vet sent us on a card after we lost a beloved little cat. Take care, Rhonda "Fragile Circle" We who choose to surround ourselves with lives even more temporary than our own live within a fragile circle, easily and often breached. Unable to accept its awful gaps, we still would live no other way. We cherish memory as the only certain immortality, never fully understanding the necessary plan... Irving Townsend DaniellaY wrote: I just want to die right now because I am so broken-hearted. Is this because she was my first pet? Does this get easier with other pets? I still have another cat who thank god is healthy but unless this gets easier I don't think I can keep going through this over and over. |
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Daniella,
Lots of hugs! It hurts so much to lose one of our little guys. It doesn't get easier, but I think (at least for me) that after awhile you start to understand. These little furries are only put on this earth for a short time. The best we can do is love them for the time they are here, but know that at some point they will have to leave. I think each animal opens up your heart a little more. When we've taken in another stray after one has departed, I always believed that the last one approved. They know how much it means to have someone to love them. I'm going to post below a poem a vet sent us on a card after we lost a beloved little cat. Take care, Rhonda "Fragile Circle" We who choose to surround ourselves with lives even more temporary than our own live within a fragile circle, easily and often breached. Unable to accept its awful gaps, we still would live no other way. We cherish memory as the only certain immortality, never fully understanding the necessary plan... Irving Townsend DaniellaY wrote: I just want to die right now because I am so broken-hearted. Is this because she was my first pet? Does this get easier with other pets? I still have another cat who thank god is healthy but unless this gets easier I don't think I can keep going through this over and over. |
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I am SO sorry to hear this. But she gave you a present. Not everyone has
such a clear message of "it's time". I've been through moments with sick cats in life that I really think went too long now. But she clearly told you in such a way that you cannot possibly think it was too soon or too late. Love your living kitty and do not be sour on accepting their love for fear of hurt. We only hurt as much as we have loved and been loved and is there any other measure of a worthwhile life? Really, is there? I don't think so. I think you are very rich. Bless you and your little one. Karen |
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