Today

Grace, No you will never forget, Not Eve, nor the pain of her death,
but you will eventually be able to look back and smile at the funny things
she did or said, and the beauty of her smile, and the *burden* will lift a
little.
I lost my son thirty years agoand I haven't forgotten one thing about him,
but the *burden* itself is not as great as it was, and I like to talk about
him to people who knew him, and to wonder what he would be like today.
Many Hugs to you and your family, and Purrs that your healing will
continue.
Jean.P.
gracecat wrote in message
...
I read in the news that a three year old was killed today. And I started
to
think, that I'm not the only one that has endured this. And our accident
wasn't the first one of it's kind, nor will it be the last. It hurts but,
there's also a very faint ray of hope that we'll adjust, and learn to be a
happy home again, that while we'll always dreadfully miss Eve... It won't
be
such a heavy weight. And believe me folks, the weight on my shoulders is
getting heavier instead of better. I felt better the day after her funeral
than I have today. It's hard doesn't begin to convey the enormity. Of
course, I don't have to explain that, ya'll understand somewhat that yes,
it
is a huge void in my life.

I've been pulling in, shutting people out lately but in the last couple
days, I've wanted to be surrounded instead. I'm talking. I'm socializing
or
just.. in town shopping. But it's still hard even though I'm either
jamming
along with the radio, laughing over a joke or a person may look at me and
say she's doing good. it's there, it's under the surface, it's lurking.. I
don't ever forget, not even for a moment. And frankly, that scares me. It
scares me that I have to go through life with this underneath, crushing my
heart...

I just pray that months later, I'll be sincerely happy. At least for a
little while at a time.

Grace
babbling again

Grace, No you will never forget, Not Eve, nor the pain of her death,
but you will eventually be able to look back and smile at the funny things
she did or said, and the beauty of her smile, and the *burden* will lift a
little.
I lost my son thirty years agoand I haven't forgotten one thing about him,
but the *burden* itself is not as great as it was, and I like to talk about
him to people who knew him, and to wonder what he would be like today.
Many Hugs to you and your family, and Purrs that your healing will
continue.
Jean.P.
gracecat wrote in message
...
I read in the news that a three year old was killed today. And I started
to
think, that I'm not the only one that has endured this. And our accident
wasn't the first one of it's kind, nor will it be the last. It hurts but,
there's also a very faint ray of hope that we'll adjust, and learn to be a
happy home again, that while we'll always dreadfully miss Eve... It won't
be
such a heavy weight. And believe me folks, the weight on my shoulders is
getting heavier instead of better. I felt better the day after her funeral
than I have today. It's hard doesn't begin to convey the enormity. Of
course, I don't have to explain that, ya'll understand somewhat that yes,
it
is a huge void in my life.

I've been pulling in, shutting people out lately but in the last couple
days, I've wanted to be surrounded instead. I'm talking. I'm socializing
or
just.. in town shopping. But it's still hard even though I'm either
jamming
along with the radio, laughing over a joke or a person may look at me and
say she's doing good. it's there, it's under the surface, it's lurking.. I
don't ever forget, not even for a moment. And frankly, that scares me. It
scares me that I have to go through life with this underneath, crushing my
heart...

I just pray that months later, I'll be sincerely happy. At least for a
little while at a time.

Grace
babbling again

Grace, No you will never forget, Not Eve, nor the pain of her death,
but you will eventually be able to look back and smile at the funny things
she did or said, and the beauty of her smile, and the *burden* will lift a
little.
I lost my son thirty years agoand I haven't forgotten one thing about him,
but the *burden* itself is not as great as it was, and I like to talk about
him to people who knew him, and to wonder what he would be like today.
Many Hugs to you and your family, and Purrs that your healing will
continue.
Jean.P.
gracecat wrote in message
...
I read in the news that a three year old was killed today. And I started
to
think, that I'm not the only one that has endured this. And our accident
wasn't the first one of it's kind, nor will it be the last. It hurts but,
there's also a very faint ray of hope that we'll adjust, and learn to be a
happy home again, that while we'll always dreadfully miss Eve... It won't
be
such a heavy weight. And believe me folks, the weight on my shoulders is
getting heavier instead of better. I felt better the day after her funeral
than I have today. It's hard doesn't begin to convey the enormity. Of
course, I don't have to explain that, ya'll understand somewhat that yes,
it
is a huge void in my life.

I've been pulling in, shutting people out lately but in the last couple
days, I've wanted to be surrounded instead. I'm talking. I'm socializing
or
just.. in town shopping. But it's still hard even though I'm either
jamming
along with the radio, laughing over a joke or a person may look at me and
say she's doing good. it's there, it's under the surface, it's lurking.. I
don't ever forget, not even for a moment. And frankly, that scares me. It
scares me that I have to go through life with this underneath, crushing my
heart...

I just pray that months later, I'll be sincerely happy. At least for a
little while at a time.

Grace
babbling again