I hate depression

On Sat, 26 Feb 2005 13:22:31 -0500, "Gabey8"
wrote:

My final day at my temp job is Monday.

I just got the letter telling me what my unemployment compensation will
be. And as little as I was making as a temp, the unemployment comp is even
less. This is not good. (

What's not helping is the bout of depression that's rapidly setting in,
which makes it hard to actually DO anything... or even to WANT to do
anything. I know I'm far from the only person who's dealt with depression
on this board, so I'm sure there are numerous people who know just what I
mean when I say that. And may anyone who HASN'T experienced *never* know
what I mean. It's a terrible feeling.

I mentioned this quite a while ago on here (when someone else was going
through a bout with depression a few years ago and there was an active
thread about it), but I was first diagnosed with depression 30+ years ago.
I was in elementary school at the time. I've been under a doctor's care
for some years now, and on meds, which help. It's a chemical thing. Such
is life. Usually, it's under control at least enough that I can live a
normal day-to-day life.

But nothing stops the occasional bout with depression that results from
the things that life throws at a person. Things like a death in the family
or, as in this case, seeing a temp job I really liked end after seeing
someone ELSE (who already worked for the company) get the permanent job
that was created to replace the temp assignment. That was a real blow.
I've been at this place for 16 months, DOING the very work that the
permanent job entails. But this company prefers to hire from within, even
when it means training the person from scratch to do their new job.

So I'm out in the cold. Even after everyone in my department couldn't say
enough good things about the quality of my work, my work ethic, my people
skills, etc.

And it hurts. Hence, the depression. Which was exacerbated last night when
I saw the pittance that will be the unemployment comp.

I am so, so tired of this. I got downsized from an IT position four years
ago and it's been a nightmare ever since.

I'm rambling. So let me just say that I'm posting this to say I'd
appreciate all prayers, purrs, good thoughts, and anything else that
anybody can send my way so this bout with depression will be lifted, AND
so I can get a permanent job that pays a LIVING WAGE *ASAP*.

If not for DH, the cats, and the fact that I still enjoy going to hockey
games, there'd be darn few things in life that I am still able to derive
joy from. So, thank God for all of them.

I hate feeling like this. I hope the cloud lifts soon.

Donna


{{{{{{Donna}}}}}}}}}

You have all the purrs and good wishes I can spare. I've suffered
from depression, off and on, for pretty much my entire life, so I
understand. I've elected to forego meds, personally, but don't judge
those who go that route. Whatever works for you is good. One of the
things that helps me is to remember that everything changes; while
things may like bleak now, they will not stay that way forever.

Wishing you all good things.

Blessings,

Ginger-lyn
posting from upstairs for good now

Home Pages:
http://www.spiritrealm.com/summer/
http://www.angelfire.com/folk/glsummer (homepage & cats)
http://freepages.genealogy.rootsweb....mmer/index.htm (genealogy)
http://www.i-love-cats.com/meow/glsummer/ (The Violence Against
Animals in Movies Website)

On Sat, 26 Feb 2005 13:22:31 -0500, "Gabey8"
wrote:

I'm rambling. So let me just say that I'm posting this to say I'd
appreciate all prayers, purrs, good thoughts, and anything else that
anybody can send my way so this bout with depression will be lifted, AND
so I can get a permanent job that pays a LIVING WAGE *ASAP*.

If not for DH, the cats, and the fact that I still enjoy going to hockey
games, there'd be darn few things in life that I am still able to derive
joy from. So, thank God for all of them.

I hate feeling like this. I hope the cloud lifts soon.

Donna

"Ramble" all you need to Donna. I can't offer anything other than
purrs and good thoughts, which are being sent your way. I hope they're
still playing hockey for your enjoyment, and you've still got your DH
and kitties in your corner too!

Furbabies are among the nicest things to hug





Jeanne Hedge, as directed by Natasha

============
http://www.jhedge.com

Gabey8 wrote:
My final day at my temp job is Monday.

I just got the letter telling me what my unemployment compensation
will be. And as little as I was making as a temp, the unemployment
comp is even less. This is not good. (

{{{{{{{{{Donna}}}}}}}

What's not helping is the bout of depression that's rapidly setting
in, which makes it hard to actually DO anything... or even to WANT to
do anything. I know I'm far from the only person who's dealt with
depression on this board, so I'm sure there are numerous people who
know just what I mean when I say that. And may anyone who HASN'T
experienced *never* know what I mean. It's a terrible feeling.

I know exactly how you feel. I wish others didn't have to know. I had to
force myself to take a bath yesterday after three days. Yes, I know it
makes me feel better to be clean and have not-greasy hair, but sometimes I
just can't get up the energy to make myself do simple things like that. And
yes, I'm on medication.

It's a chemical thing. Such is life. Usually, it's under control at
least enough that I can live a normal day-to-day life.

But nothing stops the occasional bout with depression that results
from the things that life throws at a person. Things like a death in
the family or, as in this case, seeing a temp job I really liked end
after seeing someone ELSE (who already worked for the company) get
the permanent job that was created to replace the temp assignment.
That was a real blow. I've been at this place for 16 months, DOING
the very work that the permanent job entails. But this company
prefers to hire from within, even when it means training the person
from scratch to do their new job.

I was at my job 11 years. I never told them I was on medication for
depression; I managed to get myself to work. Unfortunately, I also suffer
from IBS. The medication I take for that when I have a bout knocks me out
so I can't drive. Several times I wound up on short term disability
benefits because of this condition. And this condition was FMLA certified
by my doctor. But I didn't dare get sick with anything else; when I did, I
lost my job. And I loved that job, I really did. Haven't been able to find
anything since.

So I'm out in the cold. Even after everyone in my department couldn't
say enough good things about the quality of my work, my work ethic,
my people skills, etc.

According to everyone I worked with they didn't know what they'd do without
me. They found out.

And it hurts. Hence, the depression. Which was exacerbated last night
when I saw the pittance that will be the unemployment comp.

It's a bummer, I know. But every little bit helps. My unemployment ran out
last November. My savings have dwindled to nothing. I've been living by
the grace of family and friends, and my LLL dipping into my retirement
account (thank God for the HIPPA provisions, no additional tax penalty for
early withdrawal if you have the standard 10% withheld at the time of
dispersement and need the money due to unemployment and medical expenses).

I am so, so tired of this. I got downsized from an IT position four
years ago and it's been a nightmare ever since.

I'm rambling. So let me just say that I'm posting this to say I'd
appreciate all prayers, purrs, good thoughts, and anything else that
anybody can send my way so this bout with depression will be lifted,
AND so I can get a permanent job that pays a LIVING WAGE *ASAP*.

If not for DH, the cats, and the fact that I still enjoy going to
hockey games, there'd be darn few things in life that I am still able
to derive joy from. So, thank God for all of them.

I hate feeling like this. I hope the cloud lifts soon.

Donna

Purrs for things to get better soon.

Jill

jmcquown wrote:
Gabey8 wrote:
It's a bummer, I know. But every little bit helps. My unemployment
ran out last November. My savings have dwindled to nothing. I've
been living by the grace of family and friends, and my LLL dipping
into my retirement account

THAT didn't come out right! My LLL (long lost love) isn't dipping into my
retirement account! *I* am. He's sending me money. And don't think that
doesn't make me feel bad; it does. But I don't know where I'd be without
him.

Jill

Purrs Donna that you find a job. Purrs that something lifts your spirits.
Suz

Gabey8 wrote:

My final day at my temp job is Monday.

I just got the letter telling me what my unemployment compensation will
be. And as little as I was making as a temp, the unemployment comp is even
less. This is not good. (

My condolences! There WAS a time when one could actually
LIVE on unemployment benefits (but of course they run out).
But then, there was a time when retired people could live
on their Social Security benefits, too. Somehow the
benefits don't nearly keep up with the cost of living, and
the powers that be couldn't care less - they have a high
enough income to "provide" for their retirement, and any
high paid politician can pretty well choose among
high-paying job offers when he leaves office.


What's not helping is the bout of depression that's rapidly setting in,
which makes it hard to actually DO anything... or even to WANT to do
anything. I know I'm far from the only person who's dealt with depression
on this board, so I'm sure there are numerous people who know just what I
mean when I say that. And may anyone who HASN'T experienced *never* know
what I mean. It's a terrible feeling.

I mentioned this quite a while ago on here (when someone else was going
through a bout with depression a few years ago and there was an active
thread about it), but I was first diagnosed with depression 30+ years ago.
I was in elementary school at the time. I've been under a doctor's care
for some years now, and on meds, which help. It's a chemical thing. Such
is life. Usually, it's under control at least enough that I can live a
normal day-to-day life.

But nothing stops the occasional bout with depression that results from
the things that life throws at a person. Things like a death in the family
or, as in this case, seeing a temp job I really liked end after seeing
someone ELSE (who already worked for the company) get the permanent job
that was created to replace the temp assignment. That was a real blow.
I've been at this place for 16 months, DOING the very work that the
permanent job entails. But this company prefers to hire from within, even
when it means training the person from scratch to do their new job.

So I'm out in the cold. Even after everyone in my department couldn't say
enough good things about the quality of my work, my work ethic, my people
skills, etc.

And it hurts. Hence, the depression. Which was exacerbated last night when
I saw the pittance that will be the unemployment comp.

I am so, so tired of this. I got downsized from an IT position four years
ago and it's been a nightmare ever since.

I'm rambling. So let me just say that I'm posting this to say I'd
appreciate all prayers, purrs, good thoughts, and anything else that
anybody can send my way so this bout with depression will be lifted, AND
so I can get a permanent job that pays a LIVING WAGE *ASAP*.

If not for DH, the cats, and the fact that I still enjoy going to hockey
games, there'd be darn few things in life that I am still able to derive
joy from. So, thank God for all of them.

I hate feeling like this. I hope the cloud lifts soon.

Donna

On Sat 26 Feb 2005 01:22:31p, Gabey8 wrote in
rec.pets.cats.anecdotes
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snip

I'm rambling. So let me just say that I'm posting this to say
I'd appreciate all prayers, purrs, good thoughts, and anything
else that anybody can send my way so this bout with depression
will be lifted, AND so I can get a permanent job that pays a
LIVING WAGE *ASAP*.

If not for DH, the cats, and the fact that I still enjoy going
to hockey games, there'd be darn few things in life that I am
still able to derive joy from. So, thank God for all of them.

I hate feeling like this. I hope the cloud lifts soon.

Donna, I don't think I can help with words. I understand
depression, and I've been suffering it for just over two years now
a lot. I had bouts in earlier years, but never seeked help for it.
I just did what I was supposed to do, lived as I was supposed to,
until the day my son died. I'm not going to go into all that
because I have many times, but please know that whatever you can
find a little peace and happiness in, and if it helps for a day,
find something the next day. And if it gets too bad, talk about it.
I was brought up a Catholic, so I do have a belief in God, though I
push Him away a lot these days. You mention prayer, so I want to
quote the words of a song from a show that I recently rediscoverd
that I used to love, and this song has a lot of meaning to me.

When you walk down the road
Heavy burden, heavy load
I will rise, and I will walk with you
I'll walk with you
Till the sun don't even shine
Walk with you, every time
I tell you, I'll walk with you
Believe me I'll walk with you

I'm trying to get some happiness back in my life. My family is very
devout (well, on my mother's side - her brother is a deacon with
the Catholic church and might have become a priest if he didn't
meet and fall in love with his wife of 30 years now) and they keep
telling me that God only wants me to be happy. It's hard to accept
that, but I'm trying.

We're sending purrs and prayers that your job situation starts
going in the positive direction, and that you can handle the time
while waiting.

--
Cheryl

On Sat 26 Feb 2005 01:37:36p, Mary wrote in rec.pets.cats.anecdotes
(news:1109443057.e3a033d3b291a713a0892b269c89dc84@ teranews):

From: Mary

Would you stay put and stay in my kill file???? sheesh!!!!!!!!

--
Cheryl

On Sat 26 Feb 2005 05:33:17p, jmcquown wrote in
rec.pets.cats.anecdotes
):

THAT didn't come out right! My LLL (long lost love) isn't
dipping into my retirement account! *I* am. He's sending me
money. And don't think that doesn't make me feel bad; it does.
But I don't know where I'd be without him.

Jill, sometimes you have to rely on loved ones and family to get you
through tough times. Please don't feel bad.

--
Cheryl

Cheryl wrote:
On Sat 26 Feb 2005 01:37:36p, Mary wrote in rec.pets.cats.anecdotes
(news:1109443057.e3a033d3b291a713a0892b269c89dc84@ teranews):


From: Mary


Would you stay put and stay in my kill file???? sheesh!!!!!!!!


Pardon? I have been posting here with the same email for over a week.
I don't know what your problem is but you can be rude in the other
group, and you are on a regular basis. Why bring it here when you know
that the nice people here do not like rudeness?