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Tweed, have you heard anything from your doctors yet?


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Hugs,

CatNipped
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"CatNipped" wrote in message
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Tweed, have you heard anything from your doctors yet?


No. I shall not know any more until I wake up after my operation and they
tell me what they found. That's what makes it harder to bear, although I
think I know really as I found a couple of lumps in gynae places yesterday
which weren't there a few days ago.

I have prepared most of my family now not to expect good news, and that was
very difficult and emotional for me. My cousin Margi who I am close to is
on holiday in Tenerife and I've left strict instructions that she is not to
be told until she gets back.

I am now working my way through my friends. I have told all but two or
three. One is half-told, if you know what I mean. so only two to go and I
so wish someone else would tell them because it starts us all up weeping
every time.

My dear German friend, Nüle, phoned me for two hours on Saturday night, she
is a doctor who now practises homeopathy only and she is sending a remedy
she thinks might help (can't do any harm, anyway) while I wait to go back
into hospital. She is visiting me at the end of May.

I was also blessed and anointed yesterday by two who hold the priesthood in
the LDS. I found it very touching, and I cried.

I am holding up for now. I am being counselled to death. I fully expect to
collapse into a gibbering heap when the full impact hits me.

I am reading the group, on and off, still over 1000 unread though. I love to
hear the stories about what everyone's cat/s do.

I strongly suspect that Kitty was poking today. She has hardly stirred out
of the house all winter, but today it has warmed up and she was sitting on
top of the freezer in the conservatory, well, just sort of thinking in a
sunbeam. Actually she was crouched, like meatloafing with her eyes half
shut. Does that qualify as poking, Fil?

Tweed

Christina Websell" wrote in message
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"CatNipped" wrote in message
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Tweed, have you heard anything from your doctors yet?


No. I shall not know any more until I wake up after my operation and they
tell me what they found. That's what makes it harder to bear, although I
think I know really as I found a couple of lumps in gynae places yesterday
which weren't there a few days ago.

Oh, when is the surgery scheduled for (sorry, was that in your first post -
I haven't searched)?

Hugs,

CatNipped

Purrs and healing thoughts from deepest Bedfordshire.

You're welcome to have my phone no. if you want, sometimes there are
things it's easier to say to a stranger than to close friends or
family.
--
Shirley
http://community.webshots.com/user/shirleycatuk

"Christina Websell" wrote in
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"CatNipped" wrote in message
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Tweed, have you heard anything from your doctors yet?


No. I shall not know any more until I wake up after my operation
and they tell me what they found. That's what makes it harder to
bear, although I think I know really as I found a couple of lumps in
gynae places yesterday which weren't there a few days ago.

I have prepared most of my family now not to expect good news, and
that was very difficult and emotional for me. My cousin Margi who I
am close to is on holiday in Tenerife and I've left strict
instructions that she is not to be told until she gets back.

I am now working my way through my friends. I have told all but two
or three. One is half-told, if you know what I mean. so only two to
go and I so wish someone else would tell them because it starts us
all up weeping every time.

My dear German friend, Nüle, phoned me for two hours on Saturday
night, she is a doctor who now practises homeopathy only and she is
sending a remedy she thinks might help (can't do any harm, anyway)
while I wait to go back into hospital. She is visiting me at the
end of May.

I was also blessed and anointed yesterday by two who hold the
priesthood in the LDS. I found it very touching, and I cried.

I am holding up for now. I am being counselled to death. I fully
expect to collapse into a gibbering heap when the full impact hits
me.

I am reading the group, on and off, still over 1000 unread though. I
love to hear the stories about what everyone's cat/s do.

I strongly suspect that Kitty was poking today. She has hardly
stirred out of the house all winter, but today it has warmed up and
she was sitting on top of the freezer in the conservatory, well,
just sort of thinking in a sunbeam. Actually she was crouched, like
meatloafing with her eyes half shut. Does that qualify as poking,
Fil?

Tweed

CatNipped wrote:
Christina Websell" wrote in
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"CatNipped" wrote in message
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Tweed, have you heard anything from your doctors yet?


No. I shall not know any more until I wake up after my operation
and they tell me what they found. That's what makes it harder to
bear, although I think I know really as I found a couple of lumps in
gynae places yesterday which weren't there a few days ago.

Oh, when is the surgery scheduled for (sorry, was that in your first
post - I haven't searched)?

16th May.
It's not so much that I bother about dying early - as long as the pain
control is much better than it was in hospital - but I am terribly worried
about what might happen to Boyfriend if I do. He is only around 2 years old
and I am the only person he will go to. He doesn't like it if the back door
is closed, so I leave it ajar 24/7 so he can feel he has an escape route.
I can't imagine anyone else would do that.

I am not worried about Kitty Farmcat. She will go to anyone for comfort and
favours. I doubt she would miss me at all, which is good.

BF is another matter entirely. He is such a scaredy-cat and it's taken him
more than a year to trust just me.
I am debating to myself whether or not to leave instructions for him to be
put to sleep if I die as I just can't imagine how this tender soul could go
through a rehoming and maybe live in a city where he cannot wander around
safely and pretend to be a fierce hunter of birdies and small mammals and to
know that he can always get out of the house if he feels he has to.

(BF here. I do not *pretend* to be a fierce hunter, I am one. I have
caught loads of birdies, some big ones like collared doves, a shrew, three
mousies and two baby rats and I looked at a grey squirrel and said I would
get it one day.

I am quite excited that Mimi says she wants to go on the Mouser voyage. She
is my cyber girlfriend and I would very much like to meet her on the ship.
I hope Capt PC will allow us a couple of days in our cabin to get to know
each other before reporting for duty. !!

Shirley wrote:
Purrs and healing thoughts from deepest Bedfordshire.

You're welcome to have my phone no. if you want, sometimes there are
things it's easier to say to a stranger than to close friends or
family.


I might take you up on this after my op, which I am told is going to be just
awful, cut from sternum to pubis. Gone are the days when a bad prognosis
was concealed from you. I'm not entirely sure about this "tell it as it is
straight away" thing. More delicate preparation is needed to take this news
in. I was not told sensitively. When a doctor came to my bed I asked what
chance he thought it might not be malignant. He said "Well, patients can
always surprise us." Very tactful (not)

Tweed
and if I go screamingly mad and post rubbish in the next few days, don't be
surprised. Just humour me for now.

Christina Websell wrote:


Tweed
and if I go screamingly mad and post rubbish in the next few days, don't be
surprised. Just humour me for now.



If the group could handle me as a basket case, they should have no
problems with handling anything you could toss into the gene pool.
Seriously, hang in there and think of it this way. You won't have to
worry about wearing out your bikini now. Isn't it scary to know that
your surgeon has a more intimate knowledge of your body that your
spouse/lover?

Pam S. who's thought about these things...

On Tue, 26 Apr 2005 01:08:50 +0100, Christina Websell wrote:

Shirley wrote:
Purrs and healing thoughts from deepest Bedfordshire.

You're welcome to have my phone no. if you want, sometimes there are
things it's easier to say to a stranger than to close friends or family.


I might take you up on this after my op, which I am told is going to be
just awful, cut from sternum to pubis. Gone are the days when a bad
prognosis was concealed from you. I'm not entirely sure about this "tell
it as it is straight away" thing. More delicate preparation is needed to
take this news in. I was not told sensitively. When a doctor came to my
bed I asked what chance he thought it might not be malignant. He said
"Well, patients can always surprise us." Very tactful (not)

Tweed
and if I go screamingly mad and post rubbish in the next few days, don't
be surprised. Just humour me for now.

Forty years ago I was mentally going through what you are going through.
Then I said to myself "I am not dead yet" and that is what I said to
myself for the next five years....now it is 40 years later.

A year later my cousin got "the message". She was ready to give up then
and there. They even botched her treatment -- gave her radiation before
the surgery. Still she made it another 25 years until she was 90.

My boss got "the message" and was sure it was the end. It is now 30 years
later and he is 89/

Don't give up -- just don't give up. Say "I am here today".

Purrs and prayers that you can say "I'm here today" for many, many more
years. MLB

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wrote on 4/25/05 6:46 PM:

CatNipped wrote:
Christina Websell" wrote in
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"CatNipped" wrote in message
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Tweed, have you heard anything from your doctors yet?


No. I shall not know any more until I wake up after my operation
and they tell me what they found. That's what makes it harder to
bear, although I think I know really as I found a couple of lumps in
gynae places yesterday which weren't there a few days ago.

Oh, when is the surgery scheduled for (sorry, was that in your first
post - I haven't searched)?

16th May.
It's not so much that I bother about dying early - as long as the pain
control is much better than it was in hospital - but I am terribly worried
about what might happen to Boyfriend if I do. He is only around 2 years old
and I am the only person he will go to. He doesn't like it if the back door
is closed, so I leave it ajar 24/7 so he can feel he has an escape route.
I can't imagine anyone else would do that.

I am not worried about Kitty Farmcat. She will go to anyone for comfort and
favours. I doubt she would miss me at all, which is good.

BF is another matter entirely. He is such a scaredy-cat and it's taken him
more than a year to trust just me.
I am debating to myself whether or not to leave instructions for him to be
put to sleep if I die as I just can't imagine how this tender soul could go
through a rehoming and maybe live in a city where he cannot wander around
safely and pretend to be a fierce hunter of birdies and small mammals and to
know that he can always get out of the house if he feels he has to.

Oh Tweed. I'm quite certain that since you are in England we could find
someone to take care of Boyfriend. But that is only a possibility that you
might have to worry about in the future. There are certainly several
experienced rescuers from England on this group and I am certain if they put
heads together they could help. I sure wish I could but from over here it is
so difficult so only know that I am praying for you everynight.

Tweed, I can't post what I want right now because this (*&$(%&(*& computer
is popping up with virus alerts every 15 seconds and not allowing me to
type, but I *DO* have some things to tell you and I *WILL* post first thing
in the morning.

Hugs,

CatNipped


"Christina Websell" wrote in message
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CatNipped wrote:
Christina Websell" wrote in
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"CatNipped" wrote in message
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Tweed, have you heard anything from your doctors yet?


No. I shall not know any more until I wake up after my operation
and they tell me what they found. That's what makes it harder to
bear, although I think I know really as I found a couple of lumps in
gynae places yesterday which weren't there a few days ago.

Oh, when is the surgery scheduled for (sorry, was that in your first
post - I haven't searched)?

16th May.
It's not so much that I bother about dying early - as long as the pain
control is much better than it was in hospital - but I am terribly worried
about what might happen to Boyfriend if I do. He is only around 2 years
old
and I am the only person he will go to. He doesn't like it if the back
door
is closed, so I leave it ajar 24/7 so he can feel he has an escape route.
I can't imagine anyone else would do that.

I am not worried about Kitty Farmcat. She will go to anyone for comfort
and
favours. I doubt she would miss me at all, which is good.

BF is another matter entirely. He is such a scaredy-cat and it's taken
him
more than a year to trust just me.
I am debating to myself whether or not to leave instructions for him to be
put to sleep if I die as I just can't imagine how this tender soul could
go
through a rehoming and maybe live in a city where he cannot wander around
safely and pretend to be a fierce hunter of birdies and small mammals and
to
know that he can always get out of the house if he feels he has to.

(BF here. I do not *pretend* to be a fierce hunter, I am one. I have
caught loads of birdies, some big ones like collared doves, a shrew, three
mousies and two baby rats and I looked at a grey squirrel and said I would
get it one day.

I am quite excited that Mimi says she wants to go on the Mouser voyage.
She
is my cyber girlfriend and I would very much like to meet her on the ship.
I hope Capt PC will allow us a couple of days in our cabin to get to know
each other before reporting for duty. !!