RIP My old friend

I just got back inside from burying my old friend of 15 plus years. His
name was Phantom; my grouchy Old man. I buried him next to Spirit. I
wrapped him in some towels and a nice box. I decorate the grave in red tone
chipped bricks.

Last night after I asked for the purrs. Phantom became much weaker. He
tried to jump up on a table and fell. He just laid there in a odd facing
fashion and did not move. When I picked him up to move him back to his
perch after making sure he was ok. He was very weak barely able to stand.
He has not been eating much, drinking water yes. His kidney were giving out
from my final observations today. I laid awake most of the night thinking
about this and checking on him. He had been a big cat going from about 16
pounds to 6 pounds since his hyperthyroidism set in. He had not been
himself for a few days. I was hoping it was like before a few months ago.
This morning I knew it was time to face one of my greatest fears.

Me and Mom drove him to the emergency clinic that he was taken too not
to long ago when we found out he had hyperthyroidism. I did the special
whistle I had been doing for him over the last 15 years. Every time he
heard before in the past. He would pop up from where ever and come to me
for loving and kisses. He meowed a few times and had his special purr that
he does, all the way to the end. I held his head in my hands and focused
into his eyes. I told him I love him so much and thanked him for being my
friend for so long. It was very quick before the vet was even done he was
gone. I closed his eyes after the vet checked and told him travel safe my
friend I Love you. I was crying like a baby when I said this. I still am
as I write this.

The vet and the staff were very pleasant and compassionate. The
gentleman vet put his hand on my back and told me I was a very lucky man to
have him in my life for so long. I know I was. I already feel so empty
though. The vet also told me that I was a good man for giving the greatest
gift I could give. Am I a good man ???. I don't feel like it. I will
always have my doubts when the time was right. I think we all have felt this
way. It is a demon I must face once again. I miss him so much already. I
know I will see all of them again when it is my time. I pray the gods find
forgiveness in their hearts to let me be with my proud masters of before. I
pray for redemption for any trespasses I might do or have done in my life to
be with the ones that I love.

Travel safe across the bridge My friend. I love you so much

On Nov 22, 5:05*pm, "Matthew"
wrote:
* * I just got back inside from burying my old friend of 15 plus years. *His
name was Phantom; my grouchy Old man. *I buried him next to Spirit. *I
wrapped him in some towels and a nice box. I decorate the grave in red tone
chipped bricks.

* * Last night after I asked for the purrs. *Phantom became much weaker. *He
tried to jump up on a table and fell. *He just laid there in a odd facing
fashion and did not move. *When I picked him up to move him back to his
perch after making sure he was ok. *He was very weak barely able to stand.
He has not been eating much, drinking water yes. *His kidney were giving out
from my final observations today. *I laid awake most of the night thinking
about this and checking on him. *He had been a big cat going from about 16
pounds to 6 pounds since his hyperthyroidism set in. *He had not been
himself for a few days. *I was hoping it was like before a few months ago.
This morning I knew it was time to face one of my greatest fears.

* * Me and Mom drove him to the emergency clinic that he was taken too not
to long ago when we found out he had hyperthyroidism. I did the special
whistle I had been doing for him over the last 15 years. *Every time he
heard before in the past. *He would pop up from where ever and come to me
for loving and kisses. He meowed a few times and had his special purr that
he does, all the way to the end. *I held his head in my hands and focused
into his eyes. *I told him I love him so much and thanked him for being my
friend for so long. * It was very quick before the vet was even done he was
gone. *I closed his eyes after the vet checked and told him travel safe my
friend I Love you. *I was crying like a baby when I said this. *I still am
as I write this.

* * The vet and the staff were very pleasant and compassionate. *The
gentleman vet put his hand on my back and told me I was a very lucky man to
have him in my life for so long. *I know I was. I already feel so empty
though. *The vet also told me that I was a good man for giving the greatest
gift I could give. *Am I a good man ???. I don't feel like it. *I will
always have my doubts when the time was right. I think we all have felt this
way. *It is a demon I must face once again. *I miss him so much already. *I
know I will see all of them again when it is my time. *I pray the gods find
forgiveness in their hearts to let me be with my proud masters of before. *I
pray for redemption for any trespasses I might do or have done in my life to
be with the ones that I love.

Travel safe across the bridge *My friend. *I love you so much

He had a good time with you and now he is across the Rainbow Bridge,
where he is young and a BIG boycat again and he can jump on and off
tables at will. He misses you but he can wait; he's in no hurry.

--
Will in New Haven

Matthew wrote:
I just got back inside from burying my old friend of 15 plus years. His
name was Phantom; my grouchy Old man. I buried him next to Spirit. I
wrapped him in some towels and a nice box. I decorate the grave in red tone
chipped bricks.

Last night after I asked for the purrs. Phantom became much weaker. He
tried to jump up on a table and fell. He just laid there in a odd facing
fashion and did not move. When I picked him up to move him back to his
perch after making sure he was ok. He was very weak barely able to stand.
He has not been eating much, drinking water yes. His kidney were giving out
from my final observations today. I laid awake most of the night thinking
about this and checking on him. He had been a big cat going from about 16
pounds to 6 pounds since his hyperthyroidism set in. He had not been
himself for a few days. I was hoping it was like before a few months ago.
This morning I knew it was time to face one of my greatest fears.

Me and Mom drove him to the emergency clinic that he was taken too not
to long ago when we found out he had hyperthyroidism. I did the special
whistle I had been doing for him over the last 15 years. Every time he
heard before in the past. He would pop up from where ever and come to me
for loving and kisses. He meowed a few times and had his special purr that
he does, all the way to the end. I held his head in my hands and focused
into his eyes. I told him I love him so much and thanked him for being my
friend for so long. It was very quick before the vet was even done he was
gone. I closed his eyes after the vet checked and told him travel safe my
friend I Love you. I was crying like a baby when I said this. I still am
as I write this.

The vet and the staff were very pleasant and compassionate. The
gentleman vet put his hand on my back and told me I was a very lucky man to
have him in my life for so long. I know I was. I already feel so empty
though. The vet also told me that I was a good man for giving the greatest
gift I could give. Am I a good man ???. I don't feel like it. I will
always have my doubts when the time was right. I think we all have felt this
way. It is a demon I must face once again. I miss him so much already. I
know I will see all of them again when it is my time. I pray the gods find
forgiveness in their hearts to let me be with my proud masters of before. I
pray for redemption for any trespasses I might do or have done in my life to
be with the ones that I love.

Travel safe across the bridge My friend. I love you so much



{{{{Hugs}}}} Matt. He will be waiting for you, along with Spirit, at the
Bridge.

Patti

"Matthew" wrote:

The vet and the staff were very pleasant and compassionate. The
gentleman vet put his hand on my back and told me I was a very lucky man to
have him in my life for so long. I know I was. I already feel so empty
though. The vet also told me that I was a good man for giving the greatest
gift I could give. Am I a good man ???.

Yes, you are. We recently lost our Grand Old Man, Ripley. He too was
16 and had struggled for years with diabetes. He put up with having
his ears pricked to draw blood for glucose testing and with
twice-a-day insulin shots, but he declined steadily. On his
next-to-last day, he was having seizures and fouled his long gray coat
with diarrhea. We got his sugar back up to normal and the next day he
seemed better. For the first time in years he asked to go out. We let
him out on the deck and he laid in the sun for a couple of hours, then
came back in. Later that day, he began seizing again and we rushed him
to the vet. Blood tests showed his kidneys were gone and he was near
the end. My wife held him as the vet administered the necessary shot.
He simply went limp and was gone.

I like to think he knew the end was near when he went out to the deck
and just wanted the sun on his face one last time. There was nothing
more we could do for him.

Believe me when I say we understand your feelings. You did the right
thing.

"Matthew" wrote in message
g.com...
I just got back inside from burying my old friend of 15 plus years.
His name was Phantom; my grouchy Old man. I buried him next to Spirit. I
wrapped him in some towels and a nice box. I decorate the grave in red
tone chipped bricks.

Last night after I asked for the purrs. Phantom became much weaker.
He tried to jump up on a table and fell. He just laid there in a odd
facing fashion and did not move. When I picked him up to move him back to
his perch after making sure he was ok. He was very weak barely able to
stand. He has not been eating much, drinking water yes. His kidney were
giving out from my final observations today. I laid awake most of the
night thinking about this and checking on him. He had been a big cat
going from about 16 pounds to 6 pounds since his hyperthyroidism set in.
He had not been himself for a few days. I was hoping it was like before a
few months ago. This morning I knew it was time to face one of my greatest
fears.

Me and Mom drove him to the emergency clinic that he was taken too not
to long ago when we found out he had hyperthyroidism. I did the special
whistle I had been doing for him over the last 15 years. Every time he
heard before in the past. He would pop up from where ever and come to me
for loving and kisses. He meowed a few times and had his special purr that
he does, all the way to the end. I held his head in my hands and focused
into his eyes. I told him I love him so much and thanked him for being my
friend for so long. It was very quick before the vet was even done he
was gone. I closed his eyes after the vet checked and told him travel
safe my friend I Love you. I was crying like a baby when I said this. I
still am as I write this.

The vet and the staff were very pleasant and compassionate. The
gentleman vet put his hand on my back and told me I was a very lucky man
to have him in my life for so long. I know I was. I already feel so empty
though. The vet also told me that I was a good man for giving the
greatest gift I could give. Am I a good man ???. I don't feel like it. I
will always have my doubts when the time was right. I think we all have
felt this way. It is a demon I must face once again. I miss him so much
already. I know I will see all of them again when it is my time. I pray
the gods find forgiveness in their hearts to let me be with my proud
masters of before. I pray for redemption for any trespasses I might do or
have done in my life to be with the ones that I love.

Travel safe across the bridge My friend. I love you so much




Yes, you are a *very* good man. You made the most difficult decision we
face when we care for our furbabies, and you made your decision based on
what was best for Phansom and not for yourself. You gave Phantom the final
gift of love by making the decision when it became clear that he could no
longer have any quality of life and by being present with him when the vet
performed the necessary procedure. I have done that with each of my cats.
I always hold them at the end because I do not want their final minutes to
be a time of pain or fear, and you did the same thing. Thank you for being
so compassionate and caring. You are in pain, but you should receive some
solace by knowing that Phantom was dearly loved and is no longer in pain.

MaryL

On 22 Nov, 22:05, "Matthew" wrote:
* * I just got back inside from burying my old friend of 15 plus years. *His
name was Phantom; my grouchy Old man. *I buried him next to Spirit. *I
wrapped him in some towels and a nice box. I decorate the grave in red tone
chipped bricks.


My sympathies Matthew, I'd hoped that you'd have more time together,
but it sounds like you made the right decision.

Jeanette

"Matthew" wrote:

I just got back inside from burying my old friend of 15 plus years. ?His
name was Phantom; my grouchy Old man. ?I buried him next to Spirit. ?I
wrapped him in some towels and a nice box. I decorate the grave in red tone
chipped bricks.

Last night after I asked for the purrs. ?Phantom became much weaker. ?He
tried to jump up on a table and fell. ?He just laid there in a odd facing
fashion and did not move. ?When I picked him up to move him back to his
perch after making sure he was ok. ?He was very weak barely able to stand.
He has not been eating much, drinking water yes. ?His kidney were giving out
from my final observations today. ?I laid awake most of the night thinking
about this and checking on him. ?He had been a big cat going from about 16
pounds to 6 pounds since his hyperthyroidism set in. ?He had not been
himself for a few days. ?I was hoping it was like before a few months ago.
This morning I knew it was time to face one of my greatest fears.

Me and Mom drove him to the emergency clinic that he was taken too not
to long ago when we found out he had hyperthyroidism. I did the special
whistle I had been doing for him over the last 15 years. ?Every time he
heard before in the past. ?He would pop up from where ever and come to me
for loving and kisses. He meowed a few times and had his special purr that
he does, all the way to the end. ?I held his head in my hands and focused
into his eyes. ?I told him I love him so much and thanked him for being my
friend for so long. ? It was very quick before the vet was even done he was
gone. ?I closed his eyes after the vet checked and told him travel safe my
friend I Love you. ?I was crying like a baby when I said this. ?I still am
as I write this.

The vet and the staff were very pleasant and compassionate. ?The
gentleman vet put his hand on my back and told me I was a very lucky man to
have him in my life for so long. ?I know I was. I already feel so empty
though. ?The vet also told me that I was a good man for giving the greatest
gift I could give. ?Am I a good man ???. I don't feel like it. ?I will
always have my doubts when the time was right. I think we all have felt this
way. ?It is a demon I must face once again. ?I miss him so much already. ?I
know I will see all of them again when it is my time. ?I pray the gods find
forgiveness in their hearts to let me be with my proud masters of before. ?I
pray for redemption for any trespasses I might do or have done in my life to
be with the ones that I love.

Travel safe across the bridge ?My friend. ?I love you so much

This was so beautifully written I couldn't snip a word. I'm sitting here
crying with you. I think you did know that it was the right time for him -
all the signs were there. I think your doubts are only grief, the desire
for it not to be true. But I once had to send a cat to the RB for kidney
failure, and her final symptoms were the same. You can tell when they've
given up, when they can no longer stay alive. Phantom was ready to go.

It was so sweet that he responded to your special whistle, even from the
depths of his illness. You two had a very deep and special bond. Many
purrs for your loss, and for Phantom's safe and peaceful journey.

Joyce

"Matthew" wrote

for loving and kisses. He meowed a few times and had his special purr that
he does, all the way to the end. I held his head in my hands and focused
into his eyes. I told him I love him so much and thanked him for being my
friend for so long. It was very quick before the vet was even done he
was gone. I closed his eyes after the vet checked and told him travel
safe my friend I Love you. I was crying like a baby when I said this. I
still am as I write this.

oh god, Matthew I am so sorry. I know how much you loved him. You did
everything right. I'm crying with you now.

you know in your heart the time was right... or you wouldn't have done it,
respecting your friendship by doing what is right for him is a true manly
act, Lee

--
Have a wonderful day

"Matthew" wrote in message
g.com...
I just got back inside from burying my old friend of 15 plus years.
His name was Phantom; my grouchy Old man. I buried him next to Spirit. I
wrapped him in some towels and a nice box. I decorate the grave in red
tone chipped bricks.

Last night after I asked for the purrs. Phantom became much weaker.
He tried to jump up on a table and fell. He just laid there in a odd
facing fashion and did not move. When I picked him up to move him back to
his perch after making sure he was ok. He was very weak barely able to
stand. He has not been eating much, drinking water yes. His kidney were
giving out from my final observations today. I laid awake most of the
night thinking about this and checking on him. He had been a big cat
going from about 16 pounds to 6 pounds since his hyperthyroidism set in.
He had not been himself for a few days. I was hoping it was like before a
few months ago. This morning I knew it was time to face one of my greatest
fears.

Me and Mom drove him to the emergency clinic that he was taken too not
to long ago when we found out he had hyperthyroidism. I did the special
whistle I had been doing for him over the last 15 years. Every time he
heard before in the past. He would pop up from where ever and come to me
for loving and kisses. He meowed a few times and had his special purr that
he does, all the way to the end. I held his head in my hands and focused
into his eyes. I told him I love him so much and thanked him for being my
friend for so long. It was very quick before the vet was even done he
was gone. I closed his eyes after the vet checked and told him travel
safe my friend I Love you. I was crying like a baby when I said this. I
still am as I write this.

The vet and the staff were very pleasant and compassionate. The
gentleman vet put his hand on my back and told me I was a very lucky man
to have him in my life for so long. I know I was. I already feel so empty
though. The vet also told me that I was a good man for giving the
greatest gift I could give. Am I a good man ???. I don't feel like it. I
will always have my doubts when the time was right. I think we all have
felt this way. It is a demon I must face once again. I miss him so much
already. I know I will see all of them again when it is my time. I pray
the gods find forgiveness in their hearts to let me be with my proud
masters of before. I pray for redemption for any trespasses I might do or
have done in my life to be with the ones that I love.

Travel safe across the bridge My friend. I love you so much

On Nov 22, 2:05*pm, "Matthew"
wrote:
* * I just got back inside from burying my old friend of 15 plus years. *His
name was Phantom; my grouchy Old man. *I buried him next to Spirit. *I
wrapped him in some towels and a nice box. I decorate the grave in red tone
chipped bricks.

* * Last night after I asked for the purrs. *Phantom became much weaker. *He
tried to jump up on a table and fell. *He just laid there in a odd facing
fashion and did not move. *When I picked him up to move him back to his
perch after making sure he was ok. *He was very weak barely able to stand.
He has not been eating much, drinking water yes. *His kidney were giving out
from my final observations today. *I laid awake most of the night thinking
about this and checking on him. *He had been a big cat going from about 16
pounds to 6 pounds since his hyperthyroidism set in. *He had not been
himself for a few days. *I was hoping it was like before a few months ago.
This morning I knew it was time to face one of my greatest fears.

* * Me and Mom drove him to the emergency clinic that he was taken too not
to long ago when we found out he had hyperthyroidism. I did the special
whistle I had been doing for him over the last 15 years. *Every time he
heard before in the past. *He would pop up from where ever and come to me
for loving and kisses. He meowed a few times and had his special purr that
he does, all the way to the end. *I held his head in my hands and focused
into his eyes. *I told him I love him so much and thanked him for being my
friend for so long. * It was very quick before the vet was even done he was
gone. *I closed his eyes after the vet checked and told him travel safe my
friend I Love you. *I was crying like a baby when I said this. *I still am
as I write this.

* * The vet and the staff were very pleasant and compassionate. *The
gentleman vet put his hand on my back and told me I was a very lucky man to
have him in my life for so long. *I know I was. I already feel so empty
though. *The vet also told me that I was a good man for giving the greatest
gift I could give. *Am I a good man ???. I don't feel like it. *I will
always have my doubts when the time was right. I think we all have felt this
way. *It is a demon I must face once again. *I miss him so much already. *I
know I will see all of them again when it is my time. *I pray the gods find
forgiveness in their hearts to let me be with my proud masters of before. *I
pray for redemption for any trespasses I might do or have done in my life to
be with the ones that I love.

Travel safe across the bridge *My friend. *I love you so much

Matthew, I'm sorry for your great loss. I know how tough it is to put
a cat you dearly love to sleep. Please know that you did your best
for Phantom.

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