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Middy, R.I.P.
Warning: this might be too disturbing as I describe her last days.
My cat Middy passed away Saturday, she was about 16. She was a beautiful and very affectionate cat, all white fur with green eyes and a bit overweight most of her life. I first encountered Middy about 11 years ago when she was hanging out at my four unit apartment complex. I thought she belonged to the people downstairs but it turns out she lived in the house next door. When I saw her I would pet her and she really enjoyed that. Then she started coming up to my apartment. She was quite agile back then, a few times when she saw me open my door in the morning, she would jump up to the top of the landlord's truck in front of my apartment and then jump from there to the ledge of my apartment so she could come in. At first I did not want to let her in, but while I was in bed (I slept in the front room) I could hear her outside, very early in the morning, meowing and scratching on the window screen. So I let her in, and she would jump up on my chest while I was reclining back and then nuzzle into my armpit and bite on the fabric of my shirt while she moved her front paws back and forth, as if I were her mother. At the time I was feeling depressed so it was nice to have as a new friend this cat who wanted my company so badly. I came to know the neighbors next door and told them about Middy coming over here. They are real nice people and said it was fine as long as I did not feed her and that I let her out when I left the apartment and when going to bed. I learned that they had four cats, and Middy did not get along with the others well. So when the man of the house left for work at 4 in the morning, she would be right there at the door begging to be let out. Middy and I settled in to this pattern. She would come by early in the morning to spend time with me, I would let her out later in the morning when leaving for work, and when I came home, I would often see her waiting on the ledge in front of my apartment. (It was a bit awkward since I had not told my landlord about Middy, and he had a no pets policy -- eventually I told him and he agreed to let me keep Middy, but he was in the process of selling the apartment.) Around 9:30 at night Dana next door would come by to pick up Middy and take her back home. I became good friends with the neighbors, and Middy, and they offered to let me adopt her. Through our friendship I also came to know the other neighbors and better appreciate the diverse neighborhood. So I had Middy as my own cat for the last ten years. When I first had her I would let her roam freely outside during the day while I was at work and then take her in at night. But I lived in a busy neighborhood and it reached a point where I felt it was safer to keep her in while I was out and then let her walk outside with me mainly in the evening and weekends, during which she would nibble on grass or lay around. It was fun. For awhile my landlady next door had a very friendly mostly outdoors cat, Jackson, and while Middy was at first hostile, she warmed up to Jackson, and often at night I would be walking with both of the cats together. My landlady sold the place after five years, so Middy was alone again, with just me. Middy had various health problems. Constipation was the main problem I had with her the first few years, eventually that went away. But then she developed a hyperthyroid problem, and for the rest of her life I had to give her tapezol (methimazole). Then about a year ago, the vet discovered she had a heart problem. They diagnosed her with a significantly enlarged heart and I was told by a specialist last October she would probably go into heart failure in six to 12 months. The specialist prescribed diltiazem, but that did not work as it had bad side effects for her, but then we went to atenol, which did work to some extent in controlling her heart pattern. For most of the time since then Middy was pretty much her old self, although I knew her time was limited. Then about two months ago I noticed her breathing was becoming more labored and they discovered she had some fluid in her body, which they believed was related to the heart problem. Because Middy is very temperamental in the vet clinic, and they did not feel it safe to put her under general anathesia because of her heart problem, they did not attempt to drain the fluids, but they prescribed another drug, short name is lasix, which was a diuretic, and I gave her two of those a day. But then she started becoming constitipated again, I had to take her in for an enema, and now I was giving her yet another medicine on a regular basis, lactulose. So I was giving her four different medications twice a day. Meanwhile, she was becoming more lethargic and her appetite was going down. The vets discovered on an x-ray that she had four round objects in her lungs of which they were 90 percent certain were tumors. She was losing alot of weight. The last few days I was only able to get Middy to lick some baby food off my fingers, and even then she would turn her head away. She had lost interest in dry food, which used to be her main staple, and then canned cat food. On Friday night last week I think she went into heart failure, as she was hyperventillating, with a new rasping sound, threw up what little food she had in her body and then urinated on the carpet outside the bathroom. She was in obvious distress. I took her to the emergency vet, and my friend Judy accompanied me. I told the vet I did not want to put Middy to sleep. After hearing her problems, he said I should consider that as an option, but also suggested leaving her overnight and they could give her all kinds of tests to determine what was wrong, estimated cost around $1,000. Judy advised me not to do this, that Middy had suffered enough. In the meantime Middy had been in an oxygen incubator and her breathing pattern became more normal. So I asked the vet if I could take her back home for now and bring her back in if she relapsed, and he agreed. I took Middy back home and immediately she wanted to go outside. So I sat outside with her for about an hour, until around 1:30 am, and then she came back in. The next morning she did not eat but wanted to go outside again, so I let her out and sat with her some more. A friend of mine who has had many cats came by and spent some time with us. Middy started having breathing problems again and cuddled up into a corner, she was obviously in pain. My friend Donna advised that Middy was suffering and that she could suffocate to death, which is a horrible way to die. So I decided to take Middy in to put her to sleep. I went with two friends of mine, Donna and Judy. I wish she could have gone more peacefully. And now that she is gone I wonder if I could have done more to keep her alive. Without her there has ben an emptiness in my apartment. The first night, I felt an urge to go outside and as I was walking in the area where Middy and I used to walk, a cat, maybe a stray popped up from between one of the parked cars. I petted her, and felt for a few moments that Middy had come back. The cat disappeared. The next morning at my small Episcopal church, during the prayer session of the service, I offered a prayer for Middy. I don't know if it was considered appropriate, no one said anything to me about it afterwards, but it was important for me. I still walk outside sometimes at night, thinking of Middy. I don't know if there is life after death for our pets, but I hope so and I hope to see Middy again someday. - Steve Denney |
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Middy, R.I.P.
"Stephen Denney" wrote in message CF.Berkeley.EDU... Warning: this might be too disturbing as I describe her last days. My cat Middy passed away Saturday, she was about 16. She was a beautiful and very affectionate cat, all white fur with green eyes and a bit overweight most of her life. I am really sorry you lost your friend, it sounds like she was a wonderful cat and the two of you were great together. You gave her the best of care, much better than many cats get. She was a lucky girl and I know you will miss her. Maybe later, when the hurt eases some, you might think about adopting another cat that needs a home. There are so many and they all would be lucky to have a friend like you. |
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Middy, R.I.P.
Stephen Denney wrote: Warning: this might be too disturbing as I describe her last days. Steve, you did the right thing in choosing to euthanize her, even though you feel her end wasn't quite like you would have hoped. She is at peace now and not suffering - that's the best outcome you could have hoped for. As a vet tech I saw far too many people wait too long and believe me, you didn't want to do that. It sounds like you made the right choice at the right time - and you got to spend some quality time with her before her death, which is awesome. That's about all a pet guardian can hope for. I think your prayer for Middy was sweet - and I hope you can find some peace in the days and weeks to come. Someday another kitty in need will find you, and you can honor Middy by being as good of a guardian to that kitty as you were to Middy. You now have a kitty angel looking over you - some day you will see her again. take care, -L. |
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Middy, R.I.P.
Stephen Denney wrote:
I still walk outside sometimes at night, thinking of Middy. I don't know if there is life after death for our pets, but I hope so and I hope to see Middy again someday. - Steve Denney Steve, I'm very sorry about Middy. I know you miss her and I must tell you, as a person who has had 5 cats euthanized, you *always" second guess yourself for a little while, wondering if you did it too soon, too late, or shouldn't have done it at all. It's normal and, as your grief dissipates, you *will* know you did the right thing for Middy...your last gift to her. She had a great life and she lived to a good old age and she died in the company of the person who loved her the most. I believe you will see her again. Someone wrote this to me when one of my cats died: "You may suffer now, but your cat will have given you more than her death can take away." I, too, hope you will give another kitty a home someday soon. It is the best tribute to Middy to help another kitty have a great life. Candace |
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Middy, R.I.P.
Stephen wrote :
My cat Middy passed away Saturday, she was about 16. She was a beautiful and very affectionate cat, all white fur with green eyes and a bit overweight most of her life. I first encountered Middy about 11 years ago when she was hanging out at my four unit ------------------------------------------- My sincere condolences. You had 11 good years with Middy . I think the only thing harder to bear than losing a loved pet is losing a child. Again you have my Sympathies. A clink of the glass to Middy, a good cat. Michael Lane " in vino veritas " Pliny 100 A D |
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